My progress from 20/10/14

I know not many people will be reading this but I feel better getting it out!

I couldn't even last 24 hours!! Last night I received 105 from family member and straight away it going into my betting account! I sit up until 2am playing and I get up to 950.. Any normal person with debts like mine would withdraw and pay of 2/3 things!!

But no, my brain says 'get to 1000' so I try and before I know it I'm at 0 again!!

Why do I do it!! I tell myself everytime to not do it yet but I just carry on anyway

Hello mate,

The first post could have been written by me and I'm sure many other people on here.

My advice would be to involve as many people who are close to you as you can, this way you may at least feel as though you are letting loved ones down as well as yourself, which may be enough to stay off it.

Have you tried putting blocking devices on your pc/phone etc?

Hi Mutton,

I know I see everyone is the same and has same problem, I just feel so stupid because I know I shouldn't do it!

I will speak to family but feel ashamed to tell them.

Also I only gamble on my phone so do you know anything that works on iphone?

thanks

K9 from the app store.

You will need to set up restrictions in settings and block safari, you need someone to enter a 4 digit code then use K9 as your browser.

BLocks / restrictions help a lot , especially at the beginning.

All the best.

Hi,

I too used to only gamble on my phone and as far as I know there is no way to stop you downloading the apps; however, you should 'self-exclude' from all the gambling firms you use so that you cannot gamble with them also you should install K9 app on your phone which you can use to replace Safari- this app limits your internet access to non gambling sites.

By removing the ability to gamble makes it easier to stop, although you need to remain focused at all times.

All the best

hi guys,

thanks for the reply, yeah I have since self excluded myself from every site possible and I will download K9 as a safety barrier.

It has too stop, I can't carry on.. just wish it was easier said than done

Hey I've failed three times over the last 2 months. This time all betting accounts I am excluded from and I will do it.

Its so hard mate just keep at it and resist at all costs

Mba

Hi MBA,

Yeah it is hard but we have to all stick together and all get through it, we're all here because we know we have a problem!

My problem is the guilt and sickness I feel, especially last night! Put 105 into betting account, get up to 950 over 4 hours and should've withdrew but in 5 mins I lost it all as went massive stakes

So Day 3 I had no money so couldn't gamble anyway but it was all I was thinking about, also thinking about why I didn't stop Monday when I had won so much! Today feeling little bet but still annoyed at myself!!

Also I keep having urges to gamble when I get paid end of week!

Hi mate

Thanks for your post on my diary. Your story is also very similar to mine like a lot of people on here. I started at college at 17, i'm 25 and still have this problem. I got a decent job at 21 but it doesn't matter, your stakes just go up to get that buzz from the risk.

You really need to tackle this seriously now, even if you have a few slips along the way which is likely, you need to carry on the fight, Its not easy but can be done especially as you are young.

Put every block in place you can to assist you, don't be ashamed of admitting the problem, if you carry on it will could out in a much more horrendous way.

When I told my mum it was the best thing i ever did. They WILL help you.

If I gave up when you did I wouldn't be in debt, would have normal things that everyone else has, but gambling robbed me of that, nearly broke down some amazing relationships with family and girlfriend and made me a horrible person to be around.

Keep posting on here, I've tried loads of things but posting on here is the best thing for when you have an urge to gamble.

You will not decrease debt by gambling as a compulsive gambler - FACT.

Keep strong

James

Hi mate,

Thanks for that, need that little boost and kick up the back side and yes this weekend I had a slip. Again I won 600-700 which I actually withdrew this time.. But put back in eventually and thought could win more stupidly!

That has been my problem, trying to win money to pay my debts which will never work, your right!

And yeah I find coming on here is best way to get it out my system and my frustration of being stupid in doing it! My biggest problem is no self control, it does literally feel like there is someone inside telling me to continue because a normal person would stop!

But stay in touch as nice to chat to people and see how they're doing and for the support!

Cheers!

Mr stupidgamble,

I've been reading your diary and have commented last week. To be honest with you I see that you haven't accepted that you need to stop. A big part of you still thinks that if you bet, win and withdraw you'll be fine. The truth is us with gambling problems cannot win as we bet till we lose it all.

Mate you need to accept this and stop. You wont win.

I finally have accepted it and I'm on my last chance with my family, 20k in debt and struggling to get by each month.

Dont get to where I am before you realise mate, quit now!

Hi MBA,

To be honest your right, I know I have a problem, I want to stop it but I still think; I'll have a quick go and win some and withdraw.. But I know it doesn't work, as I prove to myself every single time I do it!

I think I have literally just got to do everything possible to stop! I just need help along the way as urges are so hard to resist!

But your right, I'm 20 and beat stop and sort it out now than when family and that!

Thanks mate, it's this kind of messages I need often to give myself a reality check

Hi Stupidgamble

You will get absolutely no pleasure in decreasing debts from gambling winnings, you would just end up resenting the fact that the winnins have disapeared and yet again your left with no gambling money for yiur next bet... then the cycle would just continue and continue

You woulf feel so much better taking responsibility and paying off your debts off from your own hard earned money. Take responsibily mate.