My Secret Diary

Day 166

So things are going well. I am probably spending too much on silly slot games but still think it is better than gambling. I am at about 28 quid a week. I think it is the best reminder of why I cannot gamble for real. Last week I had a splurge and lost 3 billion tokens. Only cost me 14.99 in real money and well worth it to remind me why I cannot get complacent and go back to real life betting. Hope anyone reading this is doing well. Px

Day 203:

Hard to believe it but I haven't gambled in over 200 days. Not even the Grand National or the Lottery.

Spending on my slot game is down too and I am trying to keep it that way. I still play three or four times a week but I am getting better at stopping when I am bored rather than when I run out of credit.

Things are pretty good.

Well done you on getting to 200 days.

Take Care.

Julie x

Day 373,

So, Hello diary, I haven't posted in a while but things are going pretty well. I have stuck with my silly slot game on Facebook for over a year and in all that time I haven't had the urge to place an actual bet. I have spent just under ВЈ2,600 in a year buying credits and tokens but, given that my worst gambling splurge cost me over ВЈ6k in a single night, I am pretty happy with that. My behaviour has changed in some ways and hasn't in others. I always maintained that the gambling was because I liked the game, the distraction and the thrill of the reels falling the right way. My worst losses related to the unfairness of not getting a feature or a decent shot. I still fall into that pattern the difference being that I lose 19 billion coins that cost me £24.99 instead of my life savings. My mood is lifted because there are no lies, no hiding bank statements and so forth. There is no stress. Yes, I still kick myself for losing g big when I should have walked away but I am no longer putting my family or my livelihood at risk. I know this is not an approach that would work for everyone. I may be genuinely odd taking as much satisfaction from fake gambling as from real but I don't care; it works for me.