New beginnings!

Hey buddy!

Thank you for your posts and sorry it's taken so long to get back to you.

The truth is I don't feel comfortable posting on the forum anymore and have been in talks with Gamcare to get my diary removed but it's proving more difficult than I thought (!)

Was hoping I could just disappear into the ether but thank you for your concern. Funnily enough, staying away from the site has helped keep gambling off my mind so maybe it's a good thing and time to move on!

If you want to stay in touch, give Gamcare a shout to pass on my email address.. would love to hear from you!

Take care my friend, stay strong and keep smiling!!

Lots of love

Lmm xxxx

Hi Lucy,

Hope all good in your world?

Am still going strong

Sue xxx

lucy.

Just checking in to ensure that smile is still there,you are so right in what you post in the fact that gamble free you are upon a new chapter,one without the constant need to punt to excist. I hope this blank page as that is what it is for you lucy is filled with all you dreamed of and much much more. You really did earn it.

Hope that smile is a mile wide still

Duncs stepping forward never back.

HI Lucy.

Hows things with you.. Miss your smileing posts 🙂

Blondie xxx

Thanks 4 ur post mate i see you havent posted since last friday on your diary dont stay away to long from your diary if you can help it

Hi Lucy, I'm slightly worried about you, you haven't posted for ages and I hope you're ok. I'm equally worried that my last post may have offended you in any way. It was only meant to be light hearted but if it caused you any upset then I apologise for that. Take care, Steve.

Good morning

18 weeks bet free today

Steve you didn't offend me at all , just struggling with life a bit at present

Thanks for the support , hopefully normal service will resume in the future

Lucy

Hi lucy , sorry to hear your struggling at the moment, I hope things improve for you soon. Hope you have some support.? How come your not posting it on your diary ? Its for the good bad and ugly remember. 16 weeks is just brilliant, well done. I hope you post again soon, you are really missed . Xxx

Lucy,

First class accomplishment. Eighteen weeks bet free is amazing and a true reflection of the hard work and dedication you have put into your recovery and diary. It has made me real happy to read your post this morning.

I keep forgetting how close we are in our recovery. Yesterday was wk20 for me and we should both be really proud of ourselves. It is too easy to forget about the disarray we used to experience on a daily basis or the constant worry we endured whenever we looked at our finances. Times are defo better but sometimes everyone needs something to worry about and now that gambling is no longer number 1 on our list we look to other things in our lives.

I hope all is well.

Tomso.

Hey Lucy,

Great to see you posting and still going strong!! Not so good to see you are having a difficult patch! I've been amazed in recovery how many of us have these patches where we feel awful! I have no idea what's bringing you down and I'm sure it's something different for all of us but I honestly believe in recovery we will have these patches! Some would say that's just life and mayb it is but i think because we spent so long as a gambler not living life, these moments are even tougher!

I hope you come through this patch unscathed, bet free and smiling!

We miss you,

Flagg

Hi Lucy,

Sorry 2 read u r struggling atm. I hope things get better 4 u soon 🙂

Stay strong xxxx

Hi Lucy,

Missing your lovely posts!

Congrats on how far you have come!

Hope you feel better soon.

Sue xxxxx

Good Morning World!

Thanks all for your supporting posts 😉

Been a tough couple of weeks for me, been feeling pretty low which is not me, have days not so good but not used to long periods and have found it hard to pull myself up.

An anniversary last weekend for a lost loved one who died 23 years ago, lots of anger and upset as to why he had to go, he really was my true love 🙁

Not having bad urges in terms of wanting to gamble just feeling that i miss it!

Miss what? The misery, the lost money, the feeling of guilt, worthlessness!

Well i've looked back , do i really want those feelings ?........ NO i don't!

Today i feel the cloud is lifting even though it's raining again!

The Olympic Torch is heading our way today and the school is finishing early so we can get home , so an easy day, some good tennis hopefully then out tonight to celebrate a friends 25th Wedding anniversary , at least some of us make it!

So today i will be thinking 'Citius, Altius, Fortius' as the Olympic motto goes ' Faster, higher, stronger'

Every day i remain bet free is another day i can award myself a gold medal, so far i have 127 😉

This journey really is up and down, lot's and lot's of changes have happenend since and at times feel very alone but i do have some inspirational friends on here and away from the forum to help make these changes a little bearable.

Thank you for all your support , i will post to others over the weekend as i continue to rise from the dark days!

Keep Strong all, Smiling Lucy is really back this time! xxxxx

Morning,

So glad those dark clouds that have been hovering are now passing you do. Every minute seems like an hour till the sun begins to peak it's way through.

I hope you enjoy your party ,and the tennis.

Time for Pimms , I think.

Shiny (aka Dusty , got a new name and a new diary, all I need now is a new haircut , shoes , man lol )

Lucy.

Smilin!!!!

Enough said.

Duncs stepping forward never back.