New start, Here goes again!!!

Well I'm still here 22 days today, that is a record for me. Still feeling strong. I have no money but trying not to worry about that. Usually when I'm well into my overdraft (as I am) I get the urge to gamble, saying to myself "I'm already £500 overdrawn what's nother few quid??" which always ends up more than a few quid lost!!! I will never get my overdraft clear if I continue to gamble and also have nothing to show for the money lost. Anyway I will stay strong and not give in. J x

Yeah! Well done. It feels great doesn't it? Remember this feeling and contrast it with the feeling of losing. No contest is it? I'm approaching 90 days and I'm so pleased with myself. I will get my 90 pen from GA on weds, a small but very important gesture. I've noticed a change in my attitude and general personality all for the better. It's also had a knock on effect with my wife, son and patents. It just goes to show what our addiction does to those around us. Another reason to keep up the good work.

I feel so pleased for other people making a difference in their life. Keep up the good work.

Thanks for your support Trotty, 24 days today, I'm feeling quite low again, I think I'm starting to see clearly the damage I have done to myself, I am feeling lonely as friends I had before don't seem to bother with me now, I believe this is my own fault as I had focused all my attention on sitting on the computer gaming, always refused a night out as I had no money, but I could still afford to gamble (or so I thought). I feel like it's going to take a very long time to get back on my feet financially, I have to keep on telling myself I must stop for good and remember how bad I felt when I lost so much. The saying is right I cannot win because I cannot stop so for today I will not gamble. Jaz x

Hi Jaz

One thing we have to remember as recovering gamblers is that there are going to be enevitable consequences to our past gambling. They can't all be dealt with just because we are now being good boys or girls. For me it was prison, loss of job, house re-posessed, bankruptcy. I accepted these things and moved on. I try not to think about the past as it will only drag you down. Most of my friends are very understanding and still stand by me today, likewise with my family, so all the things I have lost are purely material.

Talk to your friends, be honest and open, if they really are your friends, they will be your friend tomorrow, if not, move on.

Recovery is hard, consequences are painful, but the future is bright. For once that light in the tunnel is not a train coming the other way but a way out, keep walking towards it, you will get there.

I am at 90 days and feel great, I want you to feel like me, I really do.

Hi Jaz

Take yourself out for a nice walk or go for a run. Appreciate what we have in life. Things money can't buy. Look at how far you've come mate. 24 days......your first month is within sight! Don't let it get you down now. Keep digging hard and like Trotty has said the light in the tunnel is the way out.

Keep strong!

T

Still here 29 days gamble free, urges are getting less frequent but determined not to let my guard down, going away for the weekend now, so that should keep me out of trouble, I will write again next week. Jaz

Good man. Enjoy your reward.

Just checking in to say I'm still here 34 days free of gambling, had a few urges over the last couple of days, controlling them by thinking about how bad I'd feel when I lost more money!! So my first goal is to get to 50 days gamble free. Jaz

36 days today, got through the whole month of April with no slip ups, now here begins May x

40 days, staying strong although it's difficult, day at a time I am determined to beat this J x

Nearly at my 50 days goal, woke up this morning with strong urges to gamble so decided to come straight onto here. I have a long day ahead and no plans, these days are always difficult. I must remain strong and ignore the urges so onwards and upwards Day 45...... Jaz x

Hi jaz,

Well done on 45 days, those thoughts come but they do go, have all your blocks in place and keep busy, and stay positive and win, now that will feel great tomorrow morning and you will feel soooo much stronger.

Suzanne xxx

Its a brave person who gives into those urges and comes straight on here. I doff my cap to you. Well done and keep going.