Really wanted to write something today on this topic and get some thoughts out to see what the wonderful people on this community think.
For the last week I've had a bit of imposter syndrome. I don't know whether it's another vain attempt by my addiction to pull me back but I've been questioning myself, if it really was that bad how can you gamble for 44 years and then just stop. My first thoughts were, are you kidding brain ? I remember how broken I was last year and for many years. It still made me question things.
So last night I was thinking back to last year and I remember my now sponsor saying, it's Stuart's thinking that got you here and it's not Stuart's thinking will get you better.
Next thoughts were about what's different now to when in action ? I guess I've learned a lot but what's got me to that point.
It's listening. The age old saying of taking the cotton wool out of Stuart's ears and placing them in my mouth. If I don't listen how can I learn, how can I get any better, how can I support myself, my family, friends and the community. ?
I guess this ties in with connection being the opposite of addiction. Connection is two way and only works if I listen.
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