New start! I am determined to put this behind me

Alannah

Welcome to the forum and well done for posting and starting a recovery diary , a fantastic tool to keep track of your progress and get the support needed to make this extremely tough journey but one I can only emphasise is worth making

I read with interest and fully agree with your views , accepting who we are is an important part of our recovery , for me this is for life I can't beat it but I can make sure it doesn't beat me and it's of my opinion the same for any compulsive gambler , we can all go on to live normal lives by making that choice each day and choose not to gamble , if we make the wrong choice again accept it we are only human and mistakes will be made that's life

This is an amazing site that's helped me and many get our lives back on track I hope it does the same for you , be kind to yourself on your journey and be proud your making it

I wish you all the best

Castle2

Thank you very much Castle2 for your reply, and the very best of wishes to you too for your journey 🙂

Hi Alannah,

You have made a great start to your Recovery !

It is great to read an answer like Craig's. It's all very well saying don't be complacent, but I prefer to understand how do you actually do that.

You are already in a positive state of mind and this will stand to you. Forgive yourself for the past and make this your best effort at zero gambling.

I still have it in my head that you win in the first half hour on the slots and then it's all downhill . So I have learned something from your posting to Craig and that is we will never win even if we withdraw quickly. We still feed it back in again and again.

The diaries are great because people are facing the same urges as us and can help us to deal with them. Other people have a different way of looking at things which help us to look at things differently.

You are on the right site this time!

Take care,

Suzy

Hi Alannah

Thanks for the posting on my thread and glad you were able to take some of my advice/thoughts from it.

That's what I love about this site, reading other stories and advice there is always something you can empathise with that will help.

It's a life long battle which we can defeat if we help each other and are there for each other. The best thing is that nobody judges you on here because we all know what we are going and have gone through.

Take care

Craig

Hi Alannah, great to see you have taken the first step, I work in a casino and know how you feel, you do win when you first go in, but an old casino saying is they only ever lend you the money, eventually they get it back, as no one wins and keeps it, have you thought of nationally barring yourself, you'll never get in a casino again, you may feel as if something's missing but it isn't i have been free from gambling for nearly 3 weeks, miss it but feel so so much better, gets easier as the longer you go without playing, other things will take over your habit, and you will start to feel better in yourself. The anxious feeling you get when you lose leaves you you sleep better not thinking if only I had walked away when I was up, but as gamblers we think our luck is in, no such thing as all we want to do is play, so unless you are one of the non exisitant gamblers who win and walk away every time, keep playing, they don't exist. So don't play and the longer you go without the better you will feel in yourself. So keep free and stay strong. Regard Lisa b.