No more lies or secrets

Hey merc...thanks for post on my diary...hope today's gone well for you....like me ..I know you can't gamble because of the blocks....but hoping
That urges are getting less....well done on your days xxx

Thanks loxxie, today's going ok have had some urges today but came on here and read some diaries also steam cleaned my bathroom. Just waiting for oh to come home from work tbh today has been the worst since I stopped but think that's due to being home alone and it being weekend. Feeling agitated today but I won't gamble for my own sake. Don't want to feel like I did when I joined this forum, just scares me when you read people's diaries who haven't gambled for a long time then relapse. Tc hun xx

Understand all of that merc...I think we have to 're tune our brains " the normal times I would play slots have been the hardest to leave....so I just done on here and read it waffle.....ok...I'm prob spending to much time in here now...but feel safe...and until I fill the void left by the slots...thats what i will do...anyway...very good on you for not giving in today...in what potentiality is the hardest day of the week for you...so big well done hun xx

Hi all well not in a good place this morning have not slept all night and don't no why. Feel so ill 🙁 oh went up around one I stayed up watching TV but just couldn't fall asleep. Don't know if it's playing on my mind about my Ga meeting tonight as bit of a trek to get to on public transport and oh can't go with me due to work commitments. I know I will be ok.am a grown woman but this is first night since I come clean I have had a really bad nights sleep. Feel so drained and lethargic. Is this normal to feel this way??? I hope I'm not coming down with something I don't do ill.

Poor you merc...I've had a few bad nights...which is most unusual for me...maybe it is all to do with recovery...who knows....good luck for tonight....I'm sure it will be great...I don't go ga. ..nearest is 25 miles away... and I already do that miles each week for counselling....but would go if closer....be strong today xx

Thanks for your reply loxxie. I feel a bit better now I have had a few hours sleep just gearing myself up to attend my meeting tonight. Still not gambled which is good and not really thought about it think I didn't sleep last night due to stressing about going to meeting but will be ok. 12 days gf nearly two hole weeks. Pay day next week but not one penny will goon gambling as oh has full financial control which is one weight off my mind. Hope your well hope n xx will post later how it went

Good luck tonight Merc hope it goes well.

Thankyou oldham will post later very very nervous but need this for me xx

Hi Claire , thanks for the drop by always appreciated ! Those urges will come and go for a while , just stick with it and they'll get much easier to deal with , I found the longer you go the better it gets , keep the blocks in place and distract yourself and breeeeth ! LOL! Best wishes for the meeting tonight , hope all goes well for you Take care and talk to you soon !

Hi Merc

You know you have nothing to be nervous about everyone who walks through them doors will have been nervous on their first day. This time you know what to expect but this time it will be a lot less intimidating with just you ladies there. If it doesn't work out your more than welcome up in Oldham we have one regular lady and a good set of lads who will make you feel welcome.

Enjoy it

Thankyou oldham for your continued support means alot x and you were so right the lady that runs the meeting was so lovely. I made my pledge given some literature for both me and oh I talked about my gambling and barriers now in place. She explained about 12 steps and sponsorship when and if I feel I'm ready for that but the most important thing was about coming to meetings regardless of if we have gambled or not. I feel so bloody determined this time, barriers in place and with support of my amazing family this forum and my Ga meetings I actually feel hope for the first time in along time that I can kick this evil horrible addiction. 12 days gf today and just for today I will not gamble 🙂

Hi merc.....you sound so much more positive....it's lovely to hear. Pleased to hear the GA meeting went well.

take care and stay strong x

Thank you Merc for allowing me to enhance my recovery by supporting you.

You can't beat the feeling of turning up an your next meeting snd saying "My name is Martin, I am a compulsive gambler and have not had a bet today or since my last meeting" you can change the Martin to Merc next week

KTF

Well done Clare and am made up for you that all went well tonight !

Best wishes Hun !

Hi there my lovely, delighted your meeting was such a positive experience. You have to be ready to give up in order to succeed and you are most definitely up for this. It's also fantastic your OH is on board with this and he can see how committed you are. I look forward to walking the path of recovery with you and our fellow recoverees. Onwards and upwards my friend xx