Read my last page.... how could I?!!

Thanks Cheryl, Freda and Elfie....am feeling very strong and determined! Elfie- was very sad and understood what you said about blowing 4000 when u learned of your daughters illness.....we think gambling is such a dear friend to us - turns out our worst enemy. Am glad the news about your daughter is better. WE WILL BE STRONG!! Thanks again. Helen. X

Still gamble free!!! HOW I LOVE THIS WONDERFUL SITE AND ALL YOU WONDERFUL PEOPLE USING IT!!! You are all life savers - we are all working TOGETHER to beat this hideous addiction - I JUST KNOW WE CAN DO IT!! We all know that those urges are so forceful and so very difficult to stave off. Occasionally, we slip ... we feel hopeless. We're NOT bad people ... we're good people who have fallen for what we thought a bit of fun before we discover (almost overnight) that we're prisoners and subjected to regular amounts of poison. Thank you, all of you, for being here for me when I need you. You are the only people in the world who can understand my pain - you are the only people in the world I can rejoice with at every milestone of recovery! I WILL NOT GAMBLE. Let us all be strong and continue this fight and support for each other. Bless you all!! Helen. X

Hi Helen, what a lovely post

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Stay strong xx

Amen to that Helen ! I love the upbeat nature of your posts, I hope in time I can get there too. Keep posting and keep abstaining.

FM.

Hi Helen

Many Thanks for your kind words on my diary. I was having a really bad day that day and you really helped. I've been reading your Diary and I can relate to so much of it - I guess that's kind of obvious as that's why we are all here, because we have similar stories. however, I really respect your honesty and determination, and those are the things that help me figure out what I should be doing to change things in my life. Stay strong, Take care.

Hi Helen

What a lovely strong and positive post to read in the morning

Keep going and going Staying determined strong and positive

Suzanne xx

MORNING DIARY and Hi everyone and thanks for your lovely comments on my thread. Am still gamble free - got no money anyway, so can't. Not had any thoughts/urges so that in itself feels good! Pay day for me on Friday.... god help me.... that will be a test!! The upside of that is ....I've run out if contact lenses and no money in bank to order on line so will have to wait! Got to rely on my specs... would be difficult to see slots anyway lol!! Hope everyone is ok and staying POSITIVE!!! Helen xx

Well done Helen, an inspiration to us all, keep staying strong and positive

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Well done Helen. I think we joined about the same time and I was worried about you for a while but your doing it, like us all, one day at a time. Great place this for inspiration and support. Stay Strong x

Hi Helen

Thank you for your kind words. Life is finally looking good in my little world. Skint but good nevertheless. I think we go through things which makes us into who we are, whether they be good or bad things. I came to realise that nothing is ever as bad as the feelings I had when we were going through the hell of my daughter being ill. Material things don't matter, the only things that matter are our loved ones. I learnt a very big lesson in compassion as well when we left the oncologist with tears of joy and I thought of the other less fortunate people who had not received such good news. Sorry for the maudling post.

You are doing so well Helen, carry on with the positive posts.

Elfie x

Great words Helen, very well thought out! We all need to stick together and encourage each other to keep those demons at bay....

Hi Helen

You are doing really great and staying strong

I find this forum helps me enormously to keep me focused and determined to keep going forwards

Writing on my diary every day and giving support certainly helps my recovery and hopefully the support I give helps others

I think you are are doing the same to help you with your recovery and I think it's great that we can all support each other because whether on day 1 or 1000 we all appreciate any support because it is a horrible secret and destructive addiction to have

In the four months I have been on here there have been a lot of slips from members and at times I have found it quite negative and also members that just disappear I wonder if they are doing well or whether they have slipped, but the positives of being part of this wonderful forum with all the like minded folk on here pushing through the days all inspire me and really help me to keep moving forwards

I sincerely wish you the same positives

Sorry if I have rambled on your diary But I hope this helps if you get negative thoughts

Stay positive and take care

Suzanne xx

Hi Helen

Well done in staying gamble free, the secret is to keep posting, it's almost like checking in.

Shaun

as an elephant never forgets

its not a bad way to be as an addictive gambler

never forget but enjoy life

tri

Thanks everyone for your posts and encouragement. STILL GAMBLE FREE tho have to admit am a tad worried as pay day approaches.... this will actually be first pay day for me in years where I haven't INTENDED gambling. Have always been so impatient for payday so that I could log on to the slots immediately and lose the lot! AM DETERMINED not to give those fat cats any more of my money....it's mine and I really need it to keep my head above water.I WILL NOT GAMBLE!

Suzanne you are so right in what you say about supporting each other. Right now, I am worried about Cheryl - she is very down about her finances. Another thing.....has anyone heard anything about Matty? I suspect he has succumbed - I left him a message but have heard nothing more. This is the worst addiction ever - I know it's worse when you keep it to yourself but there is no way I could ever confide in anyone other than all the lovely, caring people on this site. I cringe when think about the thousands of pounds I've lost but daren't think of it for long - otherwise I'll be "chasing". Forget about them past and look to the future.....WE CAN DO THIS!! I WILL NOT GAMBLE!! Helen.'x