reborn on the 4th July

Off for a few days now after a really long day yesterday so will be nice to relax a bit and try and switch off from work

Taking daughter to a firework display tonite and she's really lookin forward to it its just great to see her happy and take it all in without having any other distractions on my mind

Everything else is all well and life is goin along at a nice steady pace

Enjoy the spectacle tonight Castle and I hope you both have a lovely time. This is as good as it gets and I'm sure it feels great.

All the best

Steve

castle

carl

Had a wonderful day yesterday with my daughter went to a fantastic firework display she really loved it , shes still my inspiration in life my reason to never go back to that life of misery

Had a nice chill day today just the 3 phone calls with work !but not let it bother me stayin destressed with life still rolling on

Some nice short posts at the moment which can only be a good thing

Hi castle

It's so good to see you enjoying life and enjoying the things that money can't buy, I.e your daughter glad you had a great time at firework display, I've been to one tonight just come back and having home made soup and crusty bread yummy keep going and doing what your doing Hollie xx

Hey castle

Thank you for all the ecouraging post on my diary. I really apprecite it. I'm glad you had a nice time at the fireworks with your daughter. I didn't enjoy mine as my 6 year old moaned all the way through. Although the fireworks were pretty fantstic :).

Have a good week

n

HI Castle,

Thank you for the post. Your posts although short scream out happiness and contentment and commitment, things money can never by

You really sound like your back in the middle lane and its where you belong. I have seen so many supportive posts that you have put so much thought into to welcome them to the site, its people like you that they want to see Living proof that recovery is possible.

Keep doing what your doing castle.

Take care

Blondie

Good Evening,

Honestly nothing pleases me more than seeing good people like yourself moving forward and finding a certain peace in life! Each day we get closer to 2013 I get that little more excited for you!

A short post from me for a change too things must be good!

Flagg

Yo,

Just a quick message , to say I am still a follower .

And yep reintegrating all the above .

You do seem happy and defo middling which makes me very happy .

Give MG a little squeeze , tell her I have not been watching the x , but would love to know who her current favourite is . Just so I know when I watch the finial .

You take care , thinking bout you .

Shiny xxxxxx

Thank u for all ur posts

Not posted on my own diary for a few days as really not much to say , been off work planned my days well so no stress and plenty of chilling , feel in control think pay day helped gave me back some purpose in life for the 1st time had some money to live on without scrimping and scraping , it could av had a different affect having money over but the determination not to go back where I came from is still strong

Life is so much better now and have this site and people to thank so much , over the last year I av learned so much bout myself and gambling and am now in a position where I av a wealth of knowledge stored in my brain , all I need to do is use it esp when the bad days come and importantly keep making the right choices in life to go on to lead a better one

Still one day at a time , still divorce to finalise and xmas comin up but will deal with them when they are here , today is a new day and am just goin to enjoy this one

Lovely post castle. Today is all we have my friend grab it with both hands.

Take care

Blondie

Keep strong and focused Castle...you are doing so well. I also read so many of your posts to new comers on here and I take my hat off to you.

Your doing just great

Forwards not back

Jewels

Had a fantastic few days off and feel so much better for it , very much in the zone at the moment which I am more than happy with , I also know how quickly that can change but that I can't control so not goin to worry bout it

What Saddens me at the moment is the amount of diaries that start with the echoing opening post of despair pain and misery which gets plenty of support but then never to be seen again , gambling is evil the way it makes u feel after a loss u know u av a problem the loss is so raw so u seek help find this site read diaries and then start one or post on new intros by this time the loss is not so raw the finances av been recalculated a pay day loan taken out or a visa card limit increased , a top up to am existing loan borrowed of family and friends lies told or even to steal to fund that filthy habit , the mind somehow thinks its ok now I can go back and won what I lost or I can control this now

I try so much to post on newcomers diaries with a clear message stick with it in the early days and fight with everything u av for me its crucial , the brain needs to become clearer and see what gambling is really for

As I mentioned what I av now is a wealth of knowledge installed in my brain , I know the triggers of what makes me gamble I know the blocks I need in place I now plan my day take out what I only need with me , gambling has a way of biting u when u least expect it so I try to expect the unexpected u just don't know what is goin to happen at any given time

Its took me a year to realise all this to train my brain learn what gambling did to me and give it the chance it will again but I av choices now as before my life for 26 years knew nothing but gambling every day my brain new no other function

I wish I knew what I knew now 26 years ago but iv accepted that I can't change that but what I can change is other peoples lives by supporting and advising people of my experience and hopefully helping them make the right decisions in their lives

Hey Castle..

I hear ya....For different reasons I also get saddened on supporters as folk seem to come on distraught write a few posts and then leave...they're choice I guess but it would be great to hear how people are doing and what happened to them and know that they have a place to be heard...

Great to see you are doing so well and eeven more great...nay...FANTASTIC is to know that there is another Kate appreciator on the site (jonb also) as I am her biggest fan!! lol...

keep in the zone my friend and always great to see your post on my diary...thank you for your kindness and support....same journey..slightly different path is all xx

R and D xx

Hi Castle,

U have offered so much support 2 a lot of us and it means alot!

I want 2 thank u sooo much 4 ur continued support and kind words that you have posted on my diary. It's helped keep me strong 🙂

Keep being u Castle, u r a gr8 guy 🙂

Have a gr8 wknd 🙂