Road to recovery

Hi there - dont be too put off by your dream...our minds work in mysterious ways! I dreamt the other night that I wanted to go to a casion, even in the dream the desire and buzz to go there was so real but I know I want to stop so have just accepted it for what it is.....a jumbled up story of feelings & emotions that have played out whilst I am fast asleep. You can't control your dreams but you can control what you do when you are awake...and if that is to stay gamble free then put all your energy into that. You are on day 8 and that is a great start, there are going to be ups and downs on this journey...we all have them, but one day at a time you can tackle them.

Keep going, your doing the right things and the fact that you came on this site straight away to post makes me thing that you are ready to stop! Big well done!

Yep , can remember that all to well , vivid dreams and crazy nightmares ! I think there all part of clearing out the junk in our mixed up heads , don't forget gambling's been a big part of our live's for so long , it's not just going to go quietly and is sometimes looking for a fight , give it a good left hook and knock it out of your thoughts , they'll soon dissappear just give it a bit of time .

Take it one day at a time , your doing just fine !

I remember them all to well felt so vivid thought I'd screwed up again.

Wish Rose was around then to tell me you can't control what you do in your sleep but you can when your a awake. Great line which is stored away for future use

KTF

Day 9

Thanks for the comments. Glad I'm not the only one who's had these nightmares. Today has been a good day. No thoughts of gambling and been in work doing overtime. Extra £150 of the debt although I won't see that money till the end of May still feels good though earning money the honest way is much more rewarding

Day 10. Proud to be in double figures now

Congratulatiions at double figures! How you feeling? You seem to work a lot, what have you got planned for your days off?

I work full time but did an extra day this week. Iv been off today and had my daughter so we been to the park and watched a film. Iv hardly touched the money I had left in my bank this week so I don't know why I'm always so obsessed about money. Im in debt because I gambled, yet I would gamble to try and clear my debt. Stupid really. I know it will get paid off in time

Day 11

Things still going well. Nothing to report. Hope everyone has a gf day today

Maybe I shouldn't post my updates so early. Although I didn't get the urge to do my usual online casino betting, I was very tempted to buy a scratch card when I went into a shop on my break at work. I thought a £2 card wouldn't hurt but then I realised I was simply wanting to gamble. Also the thought of resetting my gf timer put me off. Glad I didn't give in to my temptations. Even if it was only a small bet that was trying to draw me back in. Almost at 2 weeks now. Got a keep strong.

Day 12

I know I said I was gonna leave my updates until the end of the day but I thought il come here to post my promise to myself all of you that today I will not gamble. Hope everyone else has a gf day too

Well done for avoiding that urge the other day, that gf counter does provide some motivation for staying on track! I always try to post early on because it helps me focus my mind on being gf for the day and put down my plans - can be a good tool for getting through the day and if things do pop up, you can always come back onto the forum to read diaries or post again!

Wish you well on your journey, stay strong and get to that 2 week milestone!

Thanks rose. Yea I think that counter does provide help. The thought of resetting it to zero isn't nice although it's only at 12. Still in the same financial mess I was 12 days ago but don't feel half as bad as I did back then. Every day the pain gets a little less. I just need to make sure I don't forget that pain as that's when my guard could easily be let down

Day 13

Was a good day in terms of not gambling but had a horrible day at work. At least a bad day at work doesn't come close to a bad day of gambling.

Day 14

Well that's 2 weeks done. Got paid today but once I put my bill money to the side, and paid of my overdraft, I'm left with £40 for the month. Guess I'm going to be living in the overdraft this month 🙁 My aim is to use as little as I can and be in a better position next month. No gambling urges today however so another day of winning

Day 15

Payday and I'm finally out my overdraft. Only just though. Thought I'd catch the train to work today as I don't finish too late tonight and catch the train home. I get free travel on the trains so saves me a little bit of money. Wishing everyone a gf day