Road to recovery

Thanks loxxie. Its been over a week now since my relapse. As much as it really got me down, I'm just seeing it as a lesson. Iv self excluded from that many sites, it's impossible to know if I can play again now. Knowing that it would be a loose loose situation should help me. Got to try and see the positive side

Good for you love...keep fighting...have you tried parental blocks from your provider...simple to do x

Hi, this is the first forum chat i've come across. just opened an account with gamgare, i've self excluded from so many online gambling sites too. It seems they know that most gamblers will look for other new sites opening when we have a weakness. there seems to be endless. I have also given my details to gamcare self exclusion and banned myself from about 30 betting shops, but i travel up and down country sometimes with me job. its so difficult. Most the time i really do want to stop forever then the next day (even now) i think i could just throw all this effrt away and walk into an un banned shop or casino. One day i'm as low as could be, the next i kid myself that everythings fine. i don't know??

Just a wee note to Ground Zero - I can see you've posted in a couple of places around the forum - would you like to start a diary of your own? You can do this by going to the 'Recovery Diaries' section, scroll down to the bottom and you should see a button marked 'New topic'. Just click that and off you go.

And I know I've said this also on your other post, but for the benefit of anyone who hasn't seen that, I just want to clarify that GamCare doesn't run the self exclusion helpline. If you mean the one for betting shops, it's run by the industry themselves. This is their website: http://self-exclusion.co.uk/

Best wishes

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Hi all not posted in awhile but just letting everyone know I'm still not gambling after my last relapse. I'm taking a different approach this time and not day counting and not reading and talking about it every day. Anyway for those of you who read about the last gamble I had, I actually won and when I withdrew, they closed my account and refused to pay my winnings as I already had a self excluded account with them. I have just received an email of them today offering me to join today for a triple bonus and 200 free spins etc potentially allowing me to fall into the same mistake again. Deposit money and have zero chance of cashing out any winnings. This has outraged me and do you think I should report this or something?

Hi bud been wondering how you have been doing. I would most definitely call them and complain and also report it to the gambling commission.

Pleased to see you doing ok.

KTF

Yea I'm doing ok thanks. I saw you a couple of weeks ago stood across from GA. you looked at me as I drove the tram past but don't think you recognised me ha. Yea they are nothing but common thrives trying to take advantage of a compulsive gambler. After the last incident, having 2 accounts with the exact same details except the 2 email addresses I use. They should have both them emails blacklisted and made sure I was never contacted again

Been awhile since I updated my diary. Unfortunately I have waited until I have failed yet again to do so. I was on 130+ days and then went out for a drink with work friends. They were all betting on Cheltenham and I joined them in putting a bet on. This then led to be gambling on an online casino where I spent about £800 but managed to get a withdrawal for £1000. Of course by this time the gambling was back in my system and as we all know, once we start we can't stop. Iv maxed my credit card out and clear my bank out. Luckily a reduced my limit to £500 (was 7500) so if I didn't do that, things could have been a whole lot worse. Anyway the £1000 withdrawal iv got coming will put me more or less straight. Il be a few hundred down meaning I won't be able to overpay my loan this month when I get paid. To be honest, I'm not even too bothered about the money. It's more the fact iv gambled again. I had an app on my phone counting the days I was gf and it was heartbreaking resetting it. Gutted. I'm just gonna try and not think about it and get back on track. A couple of hours ago I was nearly signing up for a payday loan to carry on but thankfully didn't go down that path. Iv been a fool but hopefully I can draw a line under this. Just goes to show how one little bet can set things off again

Wow I suck. After doing over 130 days I only lasted 12 days this time. I bet £50 last night and turned it into £200. I don't even know why I did it. Anyway iv been back on tonight and cleared my account out. I was depositing £100 every time and just putting it all on one hand of blackjack. My last £100 and I somehow managed to turn it into £1200 so now I'm a few hundred up. I know I shouldn't really post on this site that I have won but I just want to share the emotions I was going through. The first 3 deposits were only £50 each so I knew I was even at this point but I just couldn't walk away. Just 1 more hand I kept telling myself. As the games went on I could feel my palms getting sweaty to the point my fingerprint scanner wasn't working on my phone. I could actually hear my heart beating faster and louder each hand in anticipation of the next card. I could feel the sickness in my stomach as I knew I was simply self destructing watching my balance drop £900.37 to £0.37. Watching it drop, knowing I have over 3 weeks till pay day, I just kept going like nothing mattered. It's when we log out and the haze lifts we see what we were actually doing. I didn't enjoy the experience one bit and even though iv ended up (when the money finally appears in my bank, till then I am skint) if I could go back and not do it, I would. It can't be could for my health having my heart race like that puffing away on my Ecig deeper and longer drags each time. How did I go so long last time, to give in so easy this time. I really need to get back on track and knock this on the head. Wait for funds to clear and make sure the money goes off my loan. Iv been so lucky and had a close call. I know 100% if I return to it the money will go. Why can't I always think this logically. I'm sorry for rambling on if any of you have read this far. It's time to start my journey once more