Starting again

Hi Angie,

We fell over and stumble many times in recovery..all we have to do, is to stand up, dust ourselves down and start again.once, twice, ten times...we have to keep trying Angie..there is no meter ticking..u need to feel ready and strong to get it under control. In ur own time..

Don't be hard on urself, take it slow..believe in yourself because you can do it. You are worth it..freedom is out there, you will reach it.

Day at a time

Strength to you dear fighter

Keep posting, u are not on ur own

Sandra x

Get some road blocks in place! It is obvious you cannot do this by willpower alone! I tried for years and kept leaving doors open as I knew I would return. Slam those doors shut right now and you will defeat this wretched disease for once and for all.

Keep coming back it works

I broke down before and fell to the bottom of the door. What has my life become, I don't even recognise myself anymore. I hate this illness. Over 3 years of my life has been taken away and I have nothing good to show, just mountains of debt and my family thinking I am selfish. The truth is it's like it's not me, it's like someone is living inside of me that I need to let out, I need rid of this evil that haunts me and makes me think I need the buzz. I just want to be free.

Hi Angie.

I've stumbled so many times and my life has been a mess but I'll never stop trying to quit. Try to figure out what triggers your compulsion to try and avoid the set backs. I can't tell you what works because I'm still trying to figure it out but never think that it's your fault or your being selfish. No one would choose to live like this. You have an addiction and your doing your best to over it. Well done for every effort and never give up.

Simon.

Come on angie,keep strong,do a every day routine where gambling stays out,every time you want to play remember always that if you play you are going to loose we always loose,no one comes from there winning no one!!!its a lost battle,and a non cause battle its a stupid go!yes we are selfish when we play,theres no doubt about,and besides that we are making unhappy all the people we say we love,im telling you this cause if you really want to feel the buzz,this is the buzz,every day winning from the shops by not going there!!!today i can say i have won again!come on angie!!!keep strong!

Thanks guys. Happy that it's a new month, feel it gives me more willpower to have a gamble free month. Happy February everyone- keep fighting, we can so beat this! x

Really pleased to hear you being positive. I hope this is a sign of things to come for you. A gambling free February would be amazing, it's a target I've set myself too.

Stay strong. Keep positive and we will beat this.

A gamble free February would indeed be amazing. Day 3 today. Had urges alllll day but trying to keep busy!

We all have the urges but it just a matter of not giving in to them. Every time you say no you'll get stronger and stronger. Keep it up and well done.

Day 4 almost completed. Feeling checking in every day will defiantly help. Thanks for the support. x

Hi Angie

As Smiler says, maybe if you put all blocks in place, this will really help you to move on further in your abstinence. For me, having a block on my laptop and my mobile phone, definitely really does stop you in your tracks of any triggers/thoughts to gamble. I too had roughly a 3 year period of my life where I was left to feel just exactly like yourself. Believe me when I tell you, that you really can turn this round again if you put those blocks in place. I am onto month 13 now with just a few hours slip out of all that time. Life and finances are so much better and calmer and most of all NORMAL.

I hope you find the strength to do the things you need to do in order to go forward with your abstinence.

Good luck and take care of yourself.

Feb.

Angie,

You said it - a gamble free February would be amazing. You can do it. You will have difficult days to deal with but you can get through them. Imagine how good you will feel starting March with 28 days of non gambling behind you. You are on the correct path you just need to stay on it.

Keep up the good work.

Tomso.

Thanks guys. Day 5 almost over, thought about doing it today then quickly occupied myself. I'm excluded from pretty much every bookmakers online, but I know you can always find one. I'm off tomorrow so need to make sure I keep busy and not give in to the demons. I also have my first session of counselling tomorrow so hopefully that will help keep me on track.. Dreading it though! I wish you all well. ann x

Hi there

I've got my first counselling session tomorrow too.

Very best of luck.

Let us know how it goes.