starting again

Thanks again, I am actually laughing out loud at the smashing Mr gambles face in. I love that. Brilliant!.
Yes downfall is my phone as I wouldn't go to a bookies or casino. Everything is so easily accessible and adverts are constant. I'm waiting for the triggers which will be pay day I may just take the cash out of my account and lose my card until he following. I just want a taste of what my life will be like without gambling so I can appreciate it, if that makes sense.

Of course that makes absolute sense! I think it's a great idea 🙂 I think the trick when the new card arrives is to get someone to scratch off the CVV number so you can't use it online but again, untested waters for me! If you do that, make sure you keep your cash safe, some unscrupulous people out there following folk off from banks & distracting them whilst helping themselves to the money!

Did you see the post from Sandra?

Keep laughing, recovery allows us to do that - ODAAT

Yes checked some blockers for my phone but they block sites even YouTube so still need to do some more research thank you Sandra.
Day 3 over with Feeling better just want it to be over fir good this time.
Off to read book and fall asleep. Goodnight

Hello love, thanks for message on my diary it means a lot! And welcome to GC, you have definitely come to the right place to get the ball rolling into recovery....

There are many tools you can arm yourself with to help you abstain from gambling, but the sharpest, strongest and most powerful tool in your box needs to be you, I would never have realized this myself, but I had councilling from the beginning of my recovery, the other tools in my box were gamcare forum, councilling, and having no access to my funds (I think the idea of getting somebody to rub the last 3 digits off the back of ur card is a really good idea btw!!!)

Have you ever gave one on one counseling a thought? I picked my local paper up 1 day in December last year and across the front page was an article about a recovering gambling addict who had tried to take her own life twice, I read the article and instantly felt like my story was similar to hers, she explained in the article that she had started receiving one on one sessions of counseling and that it had changed her life.... So I picked the P

Phone and made an appointment.... It definitely changed my life.... It's not for everybody.... But if it is, it can make a huge difference!!

What happened when I got paid. I gambled which is what I do every single month been embarrassed and ashamed to come back and be honest about it well guess in back to square one and in another crappy situation. Gona have to keep trying this month when I get paid I am 100% losing my bank card

Have been busy all day no urges just trying to keep busy and spending time with family and friends

Another busy fun but tiring day just watching the film the gambler and thought I would come on here and write a few words. Feeling good no urges in to day 5

Hi there

I am trying again and know the feelings you have expressed. It is strange as if you don't deserve to have any money and have a normal existence. Keep going this time and take the advice from those unlike me who are getting somewhere in defeating this horrible addiction. Good luck.

Ho down and out thanks for the reply, yea its a constant battle its when I have money in my account the urge is there my mind just goes sod it and then I feel depressed and down. The money o work for all month gone to the stupid gambling sites so what's the point in working just to give it away. Good luck to u tooo

Had an urge today beat the urge bought some kids bits instead me 1 gambling 0 : )

I logged on to a new site last nite was about to deposit but I stopped and closed the account. I stopped and thought about it rather than on an impulse. Onto day 7 x

9days I mean 🙂 double figures tomorrow

Day 10 no urges and had money go into account today only small but this would usually be the time I would say just 20quid and all gone. Happy I haven't tho

Welcome to double figures 🙂

Sometimes all you need to do is stop & think, long enough & hard enough to realise that what you are doing is throwing away recovery...Impulses, urges, they all pass eventually! Recovery is what will make your future brighter, give you your life back!

Keep making the right choices - ODAAT