Starting again, again,.

Glad your feeling a little more normal Pat... well done on your 9 days... S.A

Double figures today, Paddy. It's a small victory. Keep posting!

Had a weird day, could not shake the feeling I was going to have a bet, but got passed it, home now so another day done.

Good luck all,

Pat

I'd like to write more, but I'm off shortly for 3 days and I'm rushing.

Don't gamble for the next 3 days, Pat. Would like to talk to you about it. But it isn't worth it now, is it? I mean, there is still a way out of the hole you've (we've) dug, but you're looking at 'THE END' if you lose much more. I sometimes imagine myself trying to explain to my eldest why Mummy is going to live with granny, that makes my blood run cold and enough to pour cold water on any gambling urges. Hang on a while; think about 'feeling better'. You need to get some water under the bridge. Even if you had a win, you couldn't stop, we both know it. Do yourself a favour.

Speak soon.

Thanks mm. You wrote more than enough, reality can suck a little but the fact remains it is reality. I am right on the edge and it would take very little to push things over, I would then possibly be having that conversation with my eldest. So time to get real here and realise there is only one good way to continue and that is to be gamble free.

Feeling a little better just writing this, enjoy your 3 days and keep strong.

Pat

Hey pat,

Very true, reality can be hard to swallow, but by making a right choice every day you will make reality look loads better.

Patience and strength...it will get better:)

Forwards and onwards

Take care

Sandra

Two weeks to payday so that's the next target, will feel the pressure lift a little when that happens as cash is very tight until then.

Making it there will leave me 4weeks without a bet then roll on Christmas and 2014, I really could do with a fresh start and I want that to be now, to be this time...

Keep strong all,

Pat

Last few days flew by, nothing to report so good news. Feeling better.

Keep strong all

Pat

Nice to see 'feeling better' make an appearance again 😉

Both our diaries have a resigned, almost calm quality as compared to last time,don't you think? Or, maybe we're just gritting our teeth and getting on with it more. We certainly know what the *** is, and we know we are capable of doing it.

No c**k ups this time. Let's get to Xmas and start tackling these debts.

Speak soon

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ha ha! it censored the word '***'. that's C r A c K. Someone's got a dirty mind.

Hiya pat. Glad your going well. Keep it up. Over 2 weeks is good going just take it slow, don't be in to much of a rush there are no shortcuts you just gotta take each day as it comes and before you know it it'll be your payday, 4 weeks bet free and then again berfore you know it you'll be onto 8 weeks, 10 weeks and so on. And I know you'll feel a hell of a lot better for it. Thanks for joining the thread, great to have you and look forward to seeing the new year in bet free with you and the other challengers!

Glad to see your back on track pat,its the only way.

One step at a time is sensible,gambling really is a no win situation,there`s more to life,don`t let them b******s take any more of your cash.

Keep strong mate.

Thanks Dave andRobby.

Have had a crazy week at work so the week has just flown by, Friday again tomorrow. No thoughts of gambling but have zero cash to use so could not bet if I wanted to (certainly do not want too). will be such a relief to get paid next week, this has been the tightest month in a very very long time, am not putting myself through this any more, it is such a waste and the stress is torture .

Keep strong all

Pat

Hi Pat,

This first part of the recovery really drives it home, doesn't it...A few weeks ago thousands were passing through our hands, now we're counting the pennies and trying to maintain a normal life. I don't want to wish my life away,that's for sure, but I really need to feel that I've achieved a little something with these debts. Hopefully around Christmastime there'll be a noticeable dent (no more) in the total. For now it's just a slog.

So true bud, I have been scraping out of a change jar in our bedroom this week for lunch money, blew 1200 during a lunch break about 4 weeks ago. Where is the logic in that....

I feel like we are wishing our lives away when in gambling mode. That has too stop.

I hope to just survive Christmas , I can't see anything other than minimum payments being made on my debts between now and then. But they won't be increasing that's for sure.

Another day passes by, delighted it's Friday was a hard week at work. Lazy two days ahead taking it easy at home.

Pat