Starting again for the millionth time!!!

Here we go again, I am here again after yet another blow out!! Why can I not stop?? I have wasted so much money on gambling sites and really really want and need to stop for good. I know I have a mega problem as gambling is on my mind I'd say 99% of my time. I feel absolutely gutted when I waste so much money but when I'm on these sites I can't stop depositing over and over again....

Well today is Day 1 of this new diary and I am feeling very determined to stop forever...

Well done for coming on here Jaz. Can I ask how long you have been gambling for? I have tried to stop on so many occasions but failed. Yesterday I truly hit rock bottom and I never want to gamble again.

Does anybody know you gamble? Can you not get someone to take control of your cards so you stop?

J100

Thanks for posting on my diary j100, It's been about 3-4 years I've been gambling for. I have told my husband a while ago but I don't think he realises the full extent and he believes I stopped a while ago. I am so ashamed of myself that I don't want to tell him I never stopped . Tomorrow is pay day for me so I have to try and stay strong and not gamble. I hope you can manage to quit this addiction j100 as everyone else on here, Stay strong and take it a day at a time x

Hi Jaz - welcome to the site. First things first - have you self-excluded from all your online sites? Then install blocking software such as K9 (free) or TXNoGam (which I believe costs £20). These strategies are an enormous help in physically stopping you from wasting any more money on casinos or gambling sites. I have been 'clean' for 26 days now (my weakness was online slots) and can honestly say that with each passing day I am less and less interested in gambling. I find it hard even to remember which were my favourite slots. Try to log on to the site every day - it's so inspiring to read other people's stories and to get encouragement.

You can do it!

Best wishes,

Joanna

Thanks Joanna, I have all the blocks in place, Day 2 today and I have been kept busy, that's not to say I haven't thought about gambling but I must stay determined, also it was pay day today, I haven't looked at my bank account yet. My aim is to get to the end of this month without going into my overdraft as I do every month. No more gambling for me I will beat this addiction... keep strong guys x

Good for you - keep going - another day of sanity and soon it will be a week.

Joanna

Thanks again for your support Joanna, Day 3 today I've been reading other peoples diarys on here and its good to know I'm not alone. Such a horrible addiction with some awful consequences, I am determined to stop for good but taking a day at a time so for today I will not gamble, going to keep busy and do something constructive with my children who deserve my attention, keep strong everyone x

Jaz,

You did it got past the pay day well done. My pay day is in 3-4 days. I get paid huge and i hope i can come onto my diary and write like you did. I am only 6 days in and tomorrow is my one week. I'm excited to write in my diary one week but im going to be even more happy once my payday hits and i also don't go hurrying to check my balance to see how much credit i have to gamble. Well done keep going and by the way the millionth time of failing is ok could be worse right? could be one million and one so let's keep it at the millionth time for good. One day at a time.

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P''s i am not in any way qualified to write what i did above, but i'm trying to abstain and quit just like you 🙂

Thankyou for your post casinoloser it helps a lot, Day 4 today and could be a difficult one as I don't have any plans. Think we'll have to get out for some fresh air and clear my head. I remain determined and for today I will not gamble, keep strong guys we can beat this evil addiction x

Jaz you do that go for a walk go have a beer somewhere do something. Later i want you to come back on here and tell me you didn't gamble for today.

I did it casinoloser, no gambling yesterday and it was a tough day, am at work today so busy busy busy, thanks for your support also and keep fighting yourself, you're doing great, here's to day 5 for me, take care x

Day 6 today, am feeling determined at the moment but I've been here before so must not let my guard down, taking one day at a time, been at work all day today so that helps keep me occupied. So for today I won't gamble x

Day 7, here I am have managed to remain strong for a full week, I am not letting my defences down though as I know how easy it is to fall back into my old ways. I feel like I have a little devil in my head that keeps trying to get me to gamble again, this morning it was saying as a reward for being gamble free for a week just have a little flutter as a reward aaarghh!! I know it would not be a reward just back on the slippery slope of misery so I will not let the devil get to me lol.

Just going to keep taking a day at a time, so again for today I will not gamble & remain strong. J x

Jaz,

I was hoping to read your post as G free. Well done on beating the devil too. I have to speak to it daily and i choose to say No to him. Urges for me are strong believe me! when i write in my own diary even tho im telling my horror stories it's also reminding me i could have a flutter right now. I'm not even sure if my diary entries are working or not but im dealing with myself the best i can. It's tough, really hard but im choosing happiness for now. I know this is for me and you early days but im sure we can do it together.

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