Starting again for the millionth time!!!

Thanks for your post, I'm finding it really tough today. I'm feeling physical symptoms of stress my chest keeps feeling tight like I can't breath and I feel really nervous. Keep thinking about gambling nearly all the time why can't I get it out of my head??? I hate all the on line gambling sites for doing this to me and all of you, I am determined to beat this once and for all, wish I was writing I was a year gamble free so that's my aim for now, J x

Stay strong Jaz, you need to believe in yourself and really want to do it! I have gambled for around 25 years and lost too much! Today is day one for me after a bad relapse. My main problem was the fobt in the bookies. I have now excluded myself from them and closed my online accounts down. I need to do this otherwise I won't have a life or family!

Keep your mind active on other things when those demons come knocking.

Thanks jaym for your comments, day 8 today, finding this fight really hard, I'm ok if I'm busy with work or other things but as soon as I sit down to chill the thoughts are back, I'm feeling sick today think its all due to stress. Keep taking a day at a time, nearly in double fingers so for today I will not gamble, J x

Day 9 today, am feeling quite low today, the weather is awful, I am still determined not to gamble however low I feel because it would only make me feel worse. Just going to have a cup of tea then drag the dog around the fields in the rain lol. I feel I have to force myself to be motivated at the minute just feel like I can't be bothered with anything. Anyway going to stop moping chin up and stay strong for today!! Double figures tomorrow. Keep strong everyone J x

Day 10 and in double figures yeah!!! Am remaining strong and not lowering my defences though as still have many urges. Some days are worse than others. Anyway a day at a time so for today No gambling. J x

Hi Jaz,

Seem's just like me that relapsing is a common problem. I have stopped 30+ time's for a week, sometimes maybe 2, maybe even 4 on the rare occasion, but would always slip back into it somehow...

I'm 4 months clean now and this time is different, I put barrier's in place. Spoke to my family about my problem, handed my finance's over, carry very little money around with me, attend GA meetings and post on here everyday. Other thing's you could also consider is self exclusion, gambling blocker's, councelling and much more i'm sure. It's just trying to find what is best for you, but whatever it may be... Get them barrier's up for when the dark days come!

Best wishes,

Scambling

Well done on day 11,I'm 2 days behind you,tho I've been on the recovery road a long time and like to think I'm making progress.

Blocks are important,I've got rid of my c/card/debit card,self excluded - its helped deal with those urges,no way I can act on them.

Gambling has caused you misery,pain,sleepless nites,anger,debt,stress- you have not giving up anything that gives you pleasure- the occassional win only leads to more misery.

So don't yearn to gamble,it makes giving up even harder,you're not missing anything that made you happy- in fact the complete opposite,its been the cause of the misery.

Keep with it jaz,were on the right track.

Thanks for your comments and advice guys it really helps, day 11 today, have been kept busy with the kids so haven't had much time to think about gambling, feel like its getting a tiny bit easier, but not letting my defences down I know the dark moments are never far away. I have been here many times but am determined this is the last time for me I WILL beat this, J x

Day 12, and all going well have been very busy with the kids again today, so not to many urges to gamble. Working the next few days which helps a lot, a fortnight gamble free is in sight so I will remain strong... J x

Just popping in quickly tonight to say Day 13, I'm off to bed soon, been a very long day at work and I'm exhausted. Not many urges today as so busy, staying strong another day J x

I WAS doing so well but have fallen off the wagon again over the last couple of days wasted around £200,I have come back sooner than I usually do to this site to try again, I feel physically sick and angry with myself for being so weak, I was feeling really stressed with work and worrying about things which I now understand to be a big trigger for me. Tomorrow I am starting again to become gamble free, I seem unable to get past 2 weeks so that is my target for now, day at a time, a sad disappointed J x

Day 3 gamble free, managed to stay away from any type of gambling over the weekend, off to work now so that will keep me busy, I am determined to beat this, J x