Hi Lego , just popped by to say a huge congratulations on getting into med school , you must be so pleased that all the hard work is paying off , equally well done on getting your first month of being gamble free done and dusted ,, you really do have your whole future in front of you now , sieze it with both hands and move forward , the finances will get sorted and the debt will soon be a distant memory .
Onwards and upwards , one day at a time my friend !
Best wishes Alan
Hey Lego...just caught up on your diary...
Massive well done on your gambling free time
Even bigger WELL DONE on med school
You have a wonderfull future agead of you now....go grab it love....don't go fretting over the debts....they will shrink in time...
Banks /fiancial places will hassle you for the money...I'm sure they think the more they keep on the quicker customers will give in....don't let that pressure send you back to gambling....that old saying..."" you can't get blood from a stone "" is true...and that's not me telling you to be flippant about debt...it's about being in control..."" I will honour my debts...I will pay my debts...I'm not asking anyone else to pay my debts "...but it will be ..."when I can...and how much I can "
What a waffle...lol...what I'm trying to say is don't let debt drag you down...stay strong...hoping you can get some summer work...what you fancy doing ?.
And remember...love your life...it's yours...x
Hi Alan and Loxxie,
Lovely to check in with you both. I've always loved driving, so I've applied for a few jobs delivering cars for the summer. Failing that, I'll apply for a few retail roles. Thanks for your continued support, don't think I'd have gotten to a month without you. going for a century now, one day at a time.
Hope you're both well!
Hi Stephan
Well done firstly on facing up to your problems at a relatively young age, I'm sure a few more of us on here wish we had.
You are at an age where you are still shaping your future, rather than trying to repair the sometimes insurmountable damage that has been done over 20/30/40 years of gambling.
Remember the feelings of despair that you had when consumed with this horrible addiction, and try to keep them towards the front of your memory. Never think that you have this under control, as that is when it is most likely to strike.
Most of all, learn to enjoy your life again without gambling and make the most of your hard work on getting in to med school,
Stay strong
Russ
Good luck ..I hope the driving job comes off...and if your ever delivering to sunny devon...pop in for a coffee !
Your doing great...remember small steps...50 days next...then so on and so on....keep all guards up at all times...enjoy ! X
Hi Stephen , Just popped in to sencond what Loxxie already said , ( not popping in for coffee ) but the driving job , your determined to sort things out , that's very clear from your positive posting .
Well done my young friend , keep up racking up those gamble free days and reclaiming your life !
Best wishes ...............Alan
Thanks Mutton for your words of advice. I watched a film 'Last Vegas' the other day and whenever they were gambling, all the feelings of dread and sickness came racing back to me, so hopefully I can continue to channel those emotions and memories. I need to try and post more regularly on here as well, my counsellor says it's like a medicine and if you stop doing it, you'll be less prepared when the feelings come back.
Finally plucked up the courage to call my bank and arrange a payment plan with them, I may be able to have some credit card debts reduced as well. It will ruin my credit score, but will make it much more easy to breathe in the short term and If I'm careful for a few years then my score will rise again.
Thank you to everyone that continues to follow my thread, I could never have imagined that I'd ever be nearly 50 days gamble free, and having the support on this diary has massively helped. The next big challenge will be the Euros, as all my mates will be placing bets etc. but they all know about my problems now, so they'll be watching out for me.
Nearly 2 months gamble free now and feeling so much better. Hard to believe that 53 days ago I was barely eating or sleeping and in a total state of despair. Had a few interviews for summer jobs last week, so hopefully one of those comes off and I can enjoy a summer spending my money on holidays and festivals. I'm currently in Morocco. My girlfriend has treated me as a graduation present. We missed our flight out here and it cost us a fair bit to get another, losing that money felt like such a blow, but I would sometimes blow double that in one day gambling, crazy. Other than the other night when the England game was over on, I've barely had an urge. One day at a time I'm slowly turning things around. Hope all those that read my thread are well
Hey Lego...great to hear from you...glad life's good...isn't it better without a monkey on your shoulder !
Sure a job will appear soon...enjoy your hols x
Hello lego1993. It's great that things are improving for you, and I hope you're having a brilliant time in Morocco. I noticed that further up your thread you mention looking for counselling near home, now uni is finished. GamCare can offer free counselling - you can find your nearest at
Best wishes
Forum Admin
Got a couple of jobs lined up for summer now, still going strong and feeling positive. Thanks forum admin I'll definitely check that out and hi Loxxie, hope you're well x
Great news love...
Have a great summer. ..I reckon it's going to be a good one !
And yes I'm fine thanks x
2 months gamble free. I currently have £100 in my account and have now let it sit there for a full day. That is something I haven't done in a couple of years. Once I've bought a tank of fuel to get to work, I'm going to spend the rest on a nice day out with the girlfriend. Seen a few horror stories about people who have lost huge sums of money on the referendum result and its reminded me of my own gambling despairs. The result itself was enough to get me down without also losing money. I know most of you will be happier than me, but that's democracy I suppose. No one can take away my new found freedom from gambling, so I guess I'm happy enough
I can't believe I'm 2 days away from a century!
I'm sorry I havent updated my progress for ages, but that's because I've not really had much to say. I've been working hard doing two summer jobs which will give me enough money to breathe for the first time in a while and I also hope to have enough for a nice holiday with my girlfriend before med school starts. I just want to reiterate to anyone out there that currently feels like there is no hope, that life can get better. I was where you are only 98 days ago. I was on the verge of being made homeless and failing my degree, but with support from my family and a counsellor, I'm now more optimistic than ever. Hang in there - stop gambling NOW and everything will fall into place. The only way to start making the lost money back is by earning it and I've certainly learned that the hard way.
I'm aware that I still have a long way to go, but my next target is 6 months. I'll get there, one day at a time
Hey young man. ..fantastic to see you sail past 100 days...I remember when you arrived here...well done to you..I'm thrilled to read all the good bits in your last post...enjoy your summer my love...and keep doing what works for you...xc
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