Strange twists of fate during gambling episodes

I won a considerable amount today and couldve jusy walked away. However, I lady was frantically pounding away at 2 slots machines at once and obviously walked away losing. 

Greed, temptation and cunning had me in its grip.  I noticed that she had left £1, in one of the slots. The steward tried to run after her to no avail.

I had already sat down and started to play. Several hours passed and had squanderes at least 3 months eages and all my earlier winnings into the machine. The odd thing is the other machine she was playing saw several players come and go, every single on of them had won! I was livid.

The math says that although they all won, I wouldnt have becausr apparently an RNG (random number generator) pays to everyone differently? How? Well its to do with timing. Lets say you have 2 indentical machine with exactly the same RNG, it would be impossible for 2 seprate players to get the same pattern of reels displayed because the RNG is totally dependant upon the timing calculation of the RNG. 

This knowledge is important and a blessing to someone that has experienced this. Therefore, the result is , No! I eould not have won on the adjacent machine because I cannot possibly press the button at the specifc time unless I was literally the person playing it? Very difficult to get my head around... Although, the information is an accurate blessing to know...

Fast forward to the now, I dont want to be a part of a silly statistic anymore because from the forementioned it has succumbed to myself that the person who went up to the machine several times and won is actually me, and the the person eho loat today is also myself... What I am getting at is that no matter what the situation is with regards to timing... If you play long enough a ln individual result is EXACTLY, EXACTLY, the SAME outcome! BAR the very long and complex algorithym. 

It makes me want to believe its all a lir and when a player loses a bunch you win a bunch. When in reality and looking past the illusion it creates, EVERY single player is a cixtim to Exactly the same losses and wins in the long run. Its very accurate and fair considering EVERYBODY is being screwed over if you are willing to bet, that is?.. 

Well here I am again, 

I had a bunch of scratchcards that I foolishly bought yesterday; I had to cash the wimners in today. I found out they were not even activated. I guess it was part of the shopkeepers sinister plan to lure me into a trap, but that is a different story.

Anyways, it was a twist of fate because I ran 2 mikes to the shop and made sure I got my money. The arcade that I lost in was right next to it. So, with my cash in wallet I walked into the Arcade.

The Manager was polite and made me a Coffee. I told her I wanted a ban. She agrred and took my details. As I waited I saw an old lady go to and thro to the. Machine that I lost several ***** on yesterday. I even told her my story. It never deterred her at all, in fact I fed her into her own addiction as she ploughed wad after wad of cash into the Slot. 

I pondered over the situation and realised that was me when I am in the midst of it all. I said to myself, ' those machimes even rob old Grannies'. It made me chuckle at the way I thought about it... Then my own shame and anxiety took over me and I felt sorry about the fact the machines trap any person who places a bet on them... And I mean anyone! 

@jackjones hi mate am actually new here this is the first time i have had the courage to respond although i have been reading many forums on here. I have been addicted to gambling since 2006 at the beginning i didn't have much of an issue as i was only addicted to fruit machines since i places my first football bet was the worst thing i could have ever done that was the day i entered bookmaker i placed a football bet, i saw the machines which i assumed weee fruit machines and i put £10 into the machines i started playing i lost £5 pounds and a chap behind me to play roulette i had no idea what the game was if i had lost the bet and never won from the machine things maybe have been diff from the last £5 the chap doing the numbers got its to £28.80 i was actually going to take the money out as i was use to playing bandits as that was a jackpot for me but he insisted i carry on he did £8.80 bet and i was going to leave with £20 and it had won anyway i let him bet and before i knew it the balance went up i had no clue and he said collect it and give me £20, from then on i started playing and was losing my wages the addiction cost me close to 100k and ruined my life in every possible way i do believe their some kind of evil intent behind it all which grips the thought process changes and winning or lossing stops bringing you joy since 2018 ive managed to break out of it am not as bad as i use to be but the addiction is still their i have booked myself into Ga and hopefully i will have accept it will be with me for the rest of my life.

The good news is I managed to stop for 9 months. But recently went back to the slots. My stars kept saying Im going to receive money.. However, the opoosite has hapoened. Noe my stars are predicting trouble etc... Isnt the internet just a lure, jist like tv adverts of gambling. When will it all become apparent that Gamblers do not have a problem with gambling. In fact Gambling is a problem itself. 

I believe that I am going through considerably miserable times.  Nothing too major but small problems seem huge after a big loss. Things are getting to me. People are feeding back lots of negstive energy lately. Is it a pattern? I believe it is...

Lately I am able to control and feel strong emotions. This is definitely a great achievement for myself seeing as I have been riddled with pure anxiety for some years.

All ai need to do now is rebuild my life without gambling yet again.. It is tiring and so many obstscles to overcome. Yet again I will start over... 

@jackjones this addiction is stupid i actually really hate gambling 3 weeks ago i had some issues which put me under extreme stress without thinking about it i turned to gambling bing for 6 days i lost £750 in total i haven't had a bet in 18 days yesterday i ended up in a casino i wanted to win back the money i had lost as previously i was clean for just over two years and built a saving of over 4k i was thinking of putting a bet thankfully i didnt which could have ended up badly for me i gave 6 month rent money in advance and spent the rest on stuff which i was thinking to purchase bought new iphone a jacket pair of trainers and now im left with £150 until next wednesday when i get paid i dont have any urge to gamble although i have still blown it all i feel relieved it not all been waisted i was actually thinking of going on a holiday with the extra money i guess i could save it for next time, atleast my case it not has bad as i could have been knowing me i would have blown it all chasing my losses back

@tazman Thanks for the post, YES, I hate gambling. Suffered with extreme mental health issues and still do. If I gamble my anxiety goes through the roof. I am never ahead or up from gambling but I feel desperate, bored or lonely at times and other times just greedy. 

I am not the problem Gambling is, it tricks us into thinking we will feel good and initially we do. But thr most surprisingly important thing about gambling is; when you lose you get the Dopamine released at a huge amount which leaves us numbe and depressed. But the Brain learns to down regulate dopamine ready for the next adrenline rush as if to balance it. 

The issue is, we believe that it was okay and our mind is brainwashed into thinking it was harmless because eventually out dopamine returns to normal. On the other hand, sometimes dopamine and other hormones are left depleted causing severe issues. Best bet is to steer clear. But in the times we are living and modern tech the odds are definitely stacked in the favour of the system. Its a monopoly. We are supposedly responsible for all of our actions. 

Our whole lives are ruled by a piece of paper and its our fault when we cannot manage it.... Hmmm? Actually I believe its all a distraction to out higher selves. There is so much in the way of how we are supposed to live our lives. Instead we are stuck in this Matrix and fed with constant liea and dreams of being rich, yet it ciuldnt be firther from the truth. If we take a moment to disconnect the World becomes our Oyster. Just undo the knots and master the Mind. Breath. And lastly, try not to think (the opoosite of what we have been told).

Gambling starts off with trying to win then becomes a habit in fact i read an article about a guy losing over 100 million because he drunk the casino put bets for him and went on to sue the casino clearly he was a gambling addict and it was not the case to win some extra money, some people use it as an escape to reality and its nothing to do with winning money which is why we get cases of people lossing their homes the government well aware of this because they make so much money out of it they just brush it aside, gambling will only get stronger am fortunate i never got to online gambling which is even worse as u don't see it as money yet they keep advertising and hoping to suck in as many people even if those are future problem gamblers

I read thwt post too.

Well I havent been gambling. But the last loss was a crushing blow. 

Barred myself for Arcades as well as Bookies. Its a joke that Arcades flourished after Bookies were wiped out from the 100 a spin malarky.

When it seems toi good to be true it probalby is... Oh well..

Next year will be my best year ever...

Merry Christmas & HNY

They beat me many times they cant entice me no more my job now is get other people stuff playing this scam ladbro wanted to call the police, as i was harashing their customers  i spoke to 10 ppl outside bookies 9/10 customers all agreed the machines are a scam they are so addictive especially roulette is the worst of the worst 

Still here, looking back at how much disruption I have caused to my life  by losing all of my money is disgusting. However, the money is just a man made concept and I can meditate on it. Bottom line, gambling is a Devil.