Today is day 3 of no gambling. I was going to start this diary by saying i survived the weekend, but that makes it sound like it was a struggle (which was not the case). I filled time otherwise spent gambling with my children doing things we should of done for the past 6 years.
I will be gamble free for the rest of the week as i am on the late shift, and with the gambling blocks i have in place and no access to cards or cash it will be impossible to.
Today i booked my first councilling session, i dont know wether this will be for me, but i will give it a good go.
I have no urges to gamble at the minute, but any advice on coping with these when i do will be of great help.
Day 4.
Told parents about what i have done and how bad gambling is on my behalf, the negativity rattled me a little but i will go to work now and be gamble free like a have for the past 4 days. On to the next day
Good on you Bopper,
Day - 4 baby steps just now right now that is all you cna do is take it day at a time get all the blocks in place and limit the amount of cash you can get your hands on. Counselling was the best thing that I did and helped me to under stand the under lying issues that I had.
Keep going
Stay Strong Stay G/f
Malc
Day 5
Another gamble free day on the road to recovery, one day at a time i will put this monster to rest.
On to 9 days without a bet, today was definitely the hardest, with the football and such a big fight on. Im not gonna lie its been on my mind all day. Luckily the blocks i have in place i havent had to worry about acting on these urges as i have no access to money.
I really need to get out of the frame of mind were i think, ill gamble a little to pay for this or that then stop. Even though ive got no access to money this is still my way of thinking.
Hopefully tomorrow is a better day. Although still a gamble free day. Two weekends without a bet will be a huge step for me as i havent done this in a bout 10 years.
11 days since i last gambled, not betting for to weekends is a big deal for me, i think the key this time is I actually dont want to know more.
On to the next day...
14 days since i last gambled, i feel great knowing that i know i dont want to do it anymore and that i dont have the money at my peril to do so! Thats probably the key!
31 DAYS
Its been 31 day since my last bet, feels great. I wouldnt be able to do it with out all the blocks i have in place. Still a long way to go yet until i would feel safe being in control of anything above £20.
Hi Bop5times
Well done on your recovery so far sounds like your taking all the right steps to aid yourself.
Like you weekends are really hard for me but I'm doing everything I can to beat it one day at a time, all the best on your journey to recovery!
Excellent going, keep it up. I just completed my first gamble free weekend this year. Such a small thing feels massive. My next stop is a month like you
You will get there, you just need to do it for you! Ive found myself saying in the past i will stop now, to numerous family members. It doesn't work unless you put the blocks in place and do it for you! Will power alone isnt enough.
I know in the last 32 days if id of had access to money i would of easily gambled... but i havent because i have handed over my finances
GOOD LUCK
Day 42 ( 6weeks )
Six weeks since my last bet.... i know its still early days but my gambling days are over!! No urges what so ever, all blocks still in place and will remain there! Cant believe i let this rule my life for so long!!! Dont let it do the same to you! On to the next day!!
WELL BE BOP A LULA SHE'S MY BABY
Great ,wonderful and so so inspiring . 42 Days and committed to your recovery you are awesome. Wishing you happy days superstar....... stephen x
Day 50 gamble free
50 days since my last bet, still going strong. Ive got so much belief that i can beat this!! We all can WE JUST NEED TO STOP LOOKING FOR HAPPINESS IN THE SAME PLACE WE LOST IT!
Have a gamble free day y'all
Day 54 gamble free
Looking on peoples forums just starting recovery or their partners wanting them to and its quiet scary to think of the position i was in 8/9 weeks. This is such a devastating illness and has took me 10/11 years to want to stop.
We all have the same character traits, lieing, deception expecting to be bailed out! Its ****** up really.
Im in a great place at the minute, but the anxiety my addiction has caused i still feel that overwhelming embarrassment and struggle to conversate with my parents. The guilt on that part still eats me up. Thats my only struggle so far.
I'm not a robot
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