Hi everyone, and thank you for reading. I'm a gambling addict, that will remain with me for the rest of my life.
I first found gamcare in January 2014, not by accident, I needed help and found here. I've had a recovery diary but wanted to do a renewed post. I've been in counselling since January, but my sessions have grown further apart.
Wow, what a rollercoast of emotions the last 5 months have been. I've gone from someone so in denial about everything involving gambling and those it effected to a place where I can be honest, gamble free and with time financially better.
There was a time I thought it was just me, I had no where to turn and chased my bets constantly thinking I could blag my way out of the whole Id dug. There came that time when it stopped working. I had to tell the truth. It has caused problems, I've had to a DMP, I nearly lost my marriage and I felt suicidal at points.
But I spoke up and admitted my situation, not easy at all.
I am still aware of all the bad things, however I have a lighter step in my foot and my shoulders are so much less burdened since facing and starting and continuing to deal with my problem.
I'm fortunate in that despite the heartache I have had the strength to continue. Gamcare and breakeven have been my temporary back bone whilst I rebuilt myself, I'm still in counselling next session tomorrow, and have helped repair me to a place that I can cope with so much more. A few sessions in I needed to make a list of things I aimed for, there were several monetary things but others were - stand up for myself when knocked back for my problem and the biggest "HELP OTHERS REALISE THEYRE NOT ALONE". I don't think I'm mentality capable currently to assist others due to my situation in person so I try here. I wish each and every single person who looks on this site the greatest of support as you have come SO far in even reading posts. I wish you all the greatest wishes of best luck and please remember above all else you are not alone.
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