Ok, I am on day 2 of not gambling in any form whatsoever. I am not going to say it has been easy but am prepared for the tough times hopefully. I need to stay away from any sort of gambling and that even means scratchcards that I normally resort to as they are only a couple of pounds, that's all I normally only have as the 100s and 1000s go into the slot machines. I took a winning 3 scratchcard back today and normally would eagerly ask for another, but today I walked over to the magazine section and bought myself a couple of mags for the money. May sound really small, but to me, a little sense of achievement. I know that this road is not going to be easy, but am 100% committed to a better life, a better me! Hope that all other members are staying strong. Sue x
Hi Sue,
I totally sympathise with your situation and am too suffering the consequences of this horrific addiction. I have managed to cope for a long time without giving in to the demon but had a serious relapse the other night which has left me devastated.
My problem like yours is slot machines be it in a casino or on-line. I have to admit even though I had the relapse it was no where near the destruction of my previous gambling activity and the strange thing about it there was no urge just an involuntary action because I had access to an online site. On reflection, I am now understanding this disease process better and do believe there is light at the end of the tunnel for us all. I know there will be peaks and troughs but the troughs will get less and the desire to gamble will eventually fade, we have to be patient but work with every available resource to help us to stop. Software blocks, self exclusion, losing control of finances, counselling, GA etc and most of all honesty to close family/friends and ourselves. We have to believe in ourselves and commit to stop, we also have to improve our own self esteem as most CG's have very low self esteem which often results in gambling. Keep posting and read my diary, it may or may not be similar to your story but the thing we both have in common is the strong desire to lead a normal healthy and gamble free life.
Best wishes, I will continue to read your progress.
Hope x
How good this feels to reach 3 days without no form of gambling at all. I did have a slight urge today but fortunately it passed. I do believe that it helps to update on my recovery diary every day. I am a gambler but will not gamble again. Hope that everyone is staying strong. Sue
Congratulations on day 3 hun.
Stay strong and positive and take each milestone one at a time and be proud of yourself.
Heres hoping for a fantastic weekend free from stress and full of pride 🙂
Lisa xx
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