there are over 2019 reasons to not gamble this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All things I could gave got with that six thousand pounds but looking back you've got to live and pag fof socialising and i was out three four even sometimes five times a week.

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Another day another dollar, not sure how I feel today, looking forward to the weekend not up to much but relaxing but should be good. Bonfire night soon which will be nice I love the fireworks. Work seems ok at the mo altho it usually does and then bam something happens. O well onwards and upwards. Just rambling now absolutely nothing of importance to say lol

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It said on my profile that I was hoping to meet new people in 2018 and visit new places, I have visited many new places but I haven't met many new people, not sure where I'm going to meet them, ill have to look into that.

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Another day another dollar.

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End of another week at work tomo, looking forward to a relaxing weekend filled with some walks maybe, some gym maybe and a whole lot of relaxation. My guess is it will go as quickly as last weekend, a flash and ur going to bed on Sunday night.

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The weekend has landed pubs clubs bars well actually the opposite but relaxation at ifs best. Might do some gardening tomo if its not raining.

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Relaxation is where I’m at tonight too mate. The pubs/clubs/bars days feel like a lifetime ago and I’m only 31! Haha.

Have a nice night and a good weekend.

hi dan, yep im feeling middle aged without the need for a mid life crises as i feel ive done enough living for three people with the stories i can tell, it's been a rollercoaster of a life thus far. After years of not looking after my mind and body it has shut down and needed a lot of care and attention in order to live a productive life. I'm now tee total in all forms of addiction (im like the new steve o or russell brand), i have to be careful and not preach to people too much as i allways do when i hit a good streak and if im lucky i will not find another unhealthy thing to become addicted to. When i do things i do them with all my heart, time and energy. I used to do lots of drugs, i used to smoke loads, i used to go out every night and drink alcohol, but that was youth then finally i used to go out four nights a week and gamble. Now like u ive come out the other side and found a new sense of purpose, valueing different pleasures in life, u have to find different ways to unwind over weekends and holidays and you have a new found value for money this month ive spent ater all bills and mortgage and direct debits 38 pounds, yep exactly w*f, i dont know quite how ive managed it.

I done 3.5k on treadmill today in 30 mins (wlaking on it every five mins), very pleased, going to train for a 5k next year, its not far but if i train and aim to lose weight i can have something to focus on.

Off to work now another work week beckons.

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In a bit of a strange mood this evening. Through the years ive wasted a lot of money and its time to make up for that but due to my illness in not able to do over twenty five hours a week at the mo, this means I cant save much money. Ive got a meeting with occupational health next Monday which i can Sa I have more energy and am better fully and hopefully ill be able well my aim is to work 30 hours a week 11-5 each day. Fingers crossed that would build my pay and puf me in good stead.

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You are doing great Adam. Take things nice and steady and don't ask too much of yourself. You are gamble free and heading in the right direction. As the old saying goes " Slowly slowly catchy monkey." Maybe that is a bad example because I don't agree with people catching monkeys and I am a vegetarian.

Please be careful not to overthink about money. It is good to budget like you are doing but once you have worked out your finances, than put it out of your mind. We have all experienced the addiction telling us we need more money and that we can enrich our lives by gambling but we all know the dark, sad, lonely place where it really leads to.

You have battled with courage to get to where you are now and I respect and admire you for that. Take care my friend and keep going forward...stephen

Thanks Stephan as allways u are a light shining the way thru this difficult journey. I totally get what u mean and its definitely not all about money. Think ill go and watch a film this weekend.

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Back from another day at work.got my payslip today and I'm not getting paid for over three weeks of the four . Net pay 175. Luckily I didn't spend anything this month and have a buffer in my savings. Oh well its not all about money but when u need it it definitely helps.

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80 days today, 119 was my previous best posted this year, had a dream last night where I had a can of beer and felt guilty then went past some slot machines and thought why not icve already failed on the drinking front. A big wake up call I must not do either as one will lead to another.

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