This is my time

Well done for getting through another weekend Malkie your doing really well - keep ticking those days off and you'll make a month soon

All the best

Thanks for the support Pwm yip 28 dasy is only 4 away and in my ***.

After my counselling sessions I haev found out somethings about me and why I do the things I did, something good somethings bad but atleast now I understand why I made the decisions I did.

Anyway thanks again

Sun is Shining here today happy days.

Malc

Got paid today and started paying off my debt, removed my 2 credit cards from my wallet and placed in a secure place.

Debit card only from now on lets see how this month plans out.

Stay strong stay G/f

Malc

Also placed £10 into my saving account not alot but need to start somewhere lets see if I can do it every month, another goal so lets see how long this can keep going for.

Malc

Malkie76 wrote:

I reached an all time low around a week ago where my little boy was sleeping in the car and I went into a bookie that I was not excluded from and of course lost £500. When I came out my little boy was awake and crying because I was not there. I felt horrible ashamed stupid and upset because I was not there for him.

Read this part over again when you feel the need to gamble. That's a hard read for me to read never mind for you to live with that.

Hope you're keeping strong squire. Chin up.

Extremly Sad, no words can describe how bad I feel about that day something I will need to live with for the rest of my life.

But onwards and up wards no more gambling little boy top of the list all the way.

Stay G/f be a better person

Malc

So after my cousellor on Friday afternoon one thing I haev really taken on board.

1. Unacceptable behaviours.

2. Unacceptable behaviours turned into acceptable behaviour.

3. Unacceptable behaviours turned into acceptable behaviours turn into normal behaviours.

If you feel the above happening stop everything and rethink (w*f).

Anyway Stay Strong Stay G/f

Malc

Day 25 Woop 3 more days to go and that will be a month woopaaaaaa.

And I have been paid and feel no urges f*****g strange how the brain works.

Anyway onwards.

Malc

Keep going Malc, a montgh gamble free is a big step. Proud of you bud. Glad your getting that councelling and a few answers. Incredible what they can pull out of you.

Day -26 another one ticked off, So been paid went for tea on the way home drove past a bookiw that I was not excluded from and never even gave it a second thought,

Maybe just maybe things are changing.

Stay strong stay G/f

Malc

Malc

That showed some good inner strength, however...........

Go and exclude yourself from there mate, take an option away.

Yip agree I will do it tonight,

Thanks again for the advice

Malc

So 2 days to go and that will be 28 a month woop, My next is smoking I am 40 years old and have smoked since I was 15 f-me 25 years enough is enough in 2 days time I will try to stop smoking.

Feeling strange today not really sure why, strange empty feeling in my belly, and almost to the point where I could cry. Mountians of work to do but don't know where to start, I have clients coming in 10 minutes and really have nothing to say.

What a strange feeling wonder where this came from today.

Anyway day 28 I WILL STOP SMOKING

Malc

Boost of the day little man's nursery was only £700 instead of £1200 got to love the british goverment.

Keep going with this. You are doing brilliant. Here's to March being totally gamble free.

And I'm with you on the smoking thing. Now I have this new mindset I am feeling much more determined to fix other areas of my life. Smoking is the next one!