What a day!

Just calling in to say hi and hope the woofits have dried off in the sunshine

xxx

Thanks re x

Day 174

Not much happening here. Feeling a bit bored. Need to make an effort to pick myself up a bit!

Gamble free 🙂

Day 175= 25 weeks gamble free

Time for me to get off my backside and stop wallowing. Had a duvet day- batteries recharged so no excuse 🙂

Got my letter from my debt guru- I now know what I should be paying to whom every month. This is a bit more reassuring to have this in writing. In short, I'll be paying my debt for a long, long time (but great to bring it down a wee bit each month).

Generally, I seem to have a wee doom cloud hanging over me for the past few days- I've got nothing to be gloomy about and life's much better now that it was. Aaargh, hope I shake it off soon 🙂

Hey Irene ...

Somedays I keep forgetting why we are on here and feel bad sometimes that I take for granted that your gamble free...that's a compliment by the way as I see folks on here as people despite my ranting days ....

it's good to be reminded that also despite your own financial troubles that I can oh so relate to ....you are also gamble free ...

Doom clouds are fine ...as every one of them has a silver lining ...feel free to quote that back to me when I'm "on one" as they say here in Manchester ...we know a lot about clouds ..lol

R and D xx

Ps .just re read my last message and it may come accross as patronising as a**e ...but I hope you can see what im saying ...

These days I'm off men generally bar the obvious exceptions on this site as gambling is usually secondary for me...

I know it's not very pc but I will always take a womans side no matter what ..."irene gunned down 20 people? " ...yeah...but what did THEY do ..lol...

Xx

Hey Irene,

Congrats on 25 weeks in abstinence. That's awesome. I hope your enjoying your weekend.

Chicagoguy

Thanks so much Chicago/ Dotty x

Day 176

I've been mulling over this "downer"- seems to have no pattern when I read back over my diary, yet does seem to be a feature of the past 25 weeks. I've never noted my mood fluctuating before and to be honest it makes me uncomfortable. I've always been a bit impulsive (act then think) and tackled life's challenges head on. I'm not naïve enough to think that my life will be perfect without gambling- yet I'm wondering where that "just get on with it" attitude has gone.........I can't withdraw into myself every time things get a bit tough, so I need a plan to put into action to cope better when things get tough.

I believe that recovery from anything has to be individual- I will not use gambling to "help" me- that has caused more issues in my life than it ever "solved". I read here that some people use exercise to make them feel better physically and emotionally and I'm wondering if that's something I should try- dust off the Wii (those of you who know me are aware that I'm an exercisophobe!)

On the upside, I've had a lovely day. A former colleague visited with her mutt (who Paddy bullied relentlessly!), we avoided the rain showers and had a lovely stroll.

My great nieces then visited- they are a tonic (but having baby's an extreme measure to manage my doldrums!!!!) We spent a very civilised few hours hugging, singing and pulling funny faces. They had great fun "stretching" my legs- not a pretty sight!

Ramble over!

Hi Irene, sorry to hear you have been feeling low.

Like you the children cheer me up and loving the idea of McDs bumble bee farm, would have to have spiders as well as my boat is always covered in them.

Does feel a bit empty when they are gone so I am trying to find things to fill my time too as the exercise thing is a no go for me but easier said than done.

Can't believe you had rain as we had to use sun cream today as it was so roasting so hopefully it is heading your way.

176 days when you are feeling down is brilliant and you are so right that 'it' causes more issues than it solves so do hope life feels better soon.

xxx

Thanks re x

day 177

Doing OK- sunshine seems to have lifted my mood. Def think I'm a fairweather person and suited to sunshine 🙂

Irene,

Glad to read the sun has lifted your mood.

Amazing the effect it has on folk, the weather down here todat is grim and you can read it on folks faces.

As you said so well my friend, Gambling will just add to my problem.

Enough said.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Cheers Duncs x

Day 178

Marching towards the 6 month mark and been thinking about my next mini goals to get me through the next while.

Also, time to reflect on the changes over the past weeks.

I heard on radio today......

"Bad news- time flies, good news- you are the pilot"

.......an apt reminder that I am in control of my life and my future 🙂

Well done Irene - you certainly are in the driving seat and are most definitely in control of wr you want to go on your journey.

Take care.

Your friend.

Lady Feb.xx

Brmmmm Brmmmm Brmmm off we go.

Sorry really should act my age but would love to fly.

xxx

hi irene

keep at it

Thanks folks-towards sunnier lands wd be lovely. If my pilotings like my driving who knows where Id end up x

Day 179

Had a lovely evening-beautiful meal at bargain bucket price with my wee laughing pal-perfect! So much better than online slots.