What a day!

day 166

Keen and eager to start work 🙂

Half hr early for 1st job of the day. Nightshift tonight and tomorrow-bummer!

day167

Post nightshift fatigue!

Just dropped sis at airport, she deserves a fab hol.

Looking after her dog for a week, Paddys pleased to have his pal here 🙂

day 168=24 weeks

Who would believe it? 24 weeks without a penny spent on gambling 🙂

Well done!! 🙂

Very well done Irene! 🙂

On the subject of giving up gambling I've always thought/said easier said than done!... I'm very happy to say that since I started using this site, talking to others in similar positions, getting advice and not wanting to let new friends on here down that I've found it easier done than expected!!!

Keep doing things as you're doing them Irene... It's working!!!

Well done again Irene, love, Stubbsy 🙂 x

Thanks SA/ Stubster x

Day 169

Good day despite it being Monday 🙂

Just had a lovely wee session on "chat" which has encouraged me to think about my goals and relapse prevention strategies. I know I can't allow complacence to set in- I need to maintain the vigilance to keep moving forward in this journey.

Today was sons interview- despite being 25 he's still my "wean" and I know he was stressed about it. I clock watched all morning, feeling his anxiety until he contacted me when it was over. Saw him this evening and he looks absolutely shattered. Sounds like he has done as well as he could and he had prepared really well- fingers and toes crossed that all goes his way. I'm so proud of him and love him to bits.

Strangely, his moving out has not been as bad as I'd worried about. I'm enjoying the time we spend together as well as enjoying the solitude 🙂

I spoke to my CAB debt guru- arrgghhhhh!!! He's not very forthcoming with information about what he's done on my behalf but has promised to send me copies today. I now have 2 letters from creditors accepting my "offer" and I have no clue what my "offer" is!!!!!!!!

Got a text from sis- she's enjoying her well deserved break from the chaos at home. I refuse to be drawn into the chaos yet still feel like a babysitter whilst she's away. (I cant explain further- its not my story).

Oh! I've signed up to so some volunteering- just a monthly thing, helping at a local nature park. Me and the mutt walk there often so thought it apt to help to maintain the area.

As usual, this was to be a "quick" note- oops!!

Hey Irene,

Thanks for the post on my diary, and a huge congrats to your 169 days gamble free.

Hope things go well for your son.

Chicagoguy

Hi Irene

know what you mean about your son as mine called me to say they have 'discontinued' his role at work. I am more upset than him I think as he has worked so hard and such long hours over the years, depessing that there is no loyalty these days.

The nature volunteering sounds interesting, wish I was healthy would love to do something like that, mustn't complain as so much nature on tap where I live so can do my bit here.

Sounds like things are coming together in your life and long may they continue to do so. Want to thank you for the support as well, it is very much appreciated as I still struggle daily.

Hope it goes well for your son.

xxx

Thanks re/ Chicagoguy x

Day 170

A particularly difficult day at work- feel like I've forgotten how to leave my work behind. Rarely do I ruminate over my work once it hits 5pm, yet this evening, I can't help but dwell on today.

I'm getting a bit cheesed of with work politics also- feel sometimes like I cant do the right thing (yet I know that anything I do is with the best of intention).....arghhhhhhh.

Actually, I love my job- its just been a mince day. Tomorrow will be better 🙂

Oh! No thoughts of gambling- a massive bonus.

Day 171

Another flat day for me. I'm not sure what's up but fed up. I'm no good at work politics and don't really want to learn- I'm too straightforward to get involved, hence tend to cheese folk off (not good when its my boss!)

Hopefully tomorrow will be better!

hey irene thanks for the wishes, dont worry bout the work, the good knowledge is that you racked another day up and doing great.

carl

Hi Irene,

I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

Ive always thought any kind of politics is b*****ks and should be treated as such lol..... but just my opinion lol.

take care

blondie xx

Hey Irene

Totally know what you mean on the works politics ..it's blummin draining isn't it ..? Have some daily challenges myself too ...as Ms B says....politics has a lot to answer for in the workplace

Sending hugs

R and D xx

Thanks folks x

Day 172

Still feel like a miserable sod! Went to beach this evening to blow this mood away-succeeded in getting 2 wet and stinky dogs, headache and frozen toes!

I thought and hoped my post gambling mood had stabilised-obviously not!

Tomorrow will be better 🙂

Day 173

Getting less down I think. Surprisingly few gambling thoughts- so not all bad!