What a day!

Hey Irene,

Im glad you feel better, and i know you going to cope. You are so big inspiration for others(and me of course).

Stay strong darling

Best wishes

Sandra

Irene.

Glad to read the your feeling better.

As for the urges, that dirty old beast our former life choice picks its moments when we are feeling low, but i post safe in the knowledge that your resolve is stronger than to let him in the door, and to boot your trusty dog's there to see him off not before sinking his teeth in lol.

Keep up the great work

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Irene,

I hope u r ok and staying strong 🙂

Thanks 4 all ur support, u r doing brilliant. U should be so proud of urself 🙂

Have a gr8 day xx

Thanks so much x

Day 207

Right! That's me back to "normal". I've managed to catch up on some diaries which always gives me a boost!

I'm thinking that the recent gambling thoughts are actually associated with the realisation that I can't financially do the things that I've become used to doing. There's just that wee bit of me that is tempted to try again to "win my fortune"- thankfully this has been superseded by the knowledge that this is very unlikely to happen (the financial mess I've got myself into is testament to this!). Its not a risk I'm willing to take. Yes, its not easy to accept the changes at times but ultimately, they are changes for the better 🙂

This evening was brill! Me n my jelly belly had a work's do which was great- a real recognition of hard work (something which doesn't happen often). Healthy diet out the window- the buffet was delish!

Irene

i love the mantra.

" the odds on offer are not worth risking what i have"

You through your hard work equally see that.

The gift of abstinence keeps giving.

Gambling that would just keep taking.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Well congrats on them days and way to go.

Guess I went wading in the gambling world and be dammed if I didnt loose again. Lol yeah no surprise there I guess. Glad your staying strong and keep the trend going.

Hi Irene

well done on your 200+days amazing. and congrats on resisting the gambling urges.

have a lovely w/end.

Stuxx

Ta much-the support means loads x

Day 208

Nightshift, so no time to think of gambling 🙂

Glad the workd do was fun and hope the weekend is too.

Many thanks for your support.

xxx

Thanks re x

Day 210=30 weeks

Oops forgot to post yesterday!

Still gamble free- just! Finding myself thinking of ways that I can log on to gambling sites-what's going on???????? I don't want to waste any more emotions or hard earned cash on that way of existing, I'm so sure of that- so why are these thoughts popping up?

I've been busy in garden so can't blame boredom. Son visited earlier so can't blame lonlieness. Really the only trigger I can identify is post nightshift fatigue, yet since stopping, I've done many nights without issue (although in the early stages I did find tiredness difficult). These feelings are quite scary, however, I feel like I'm coping quite well so far . I'm determined that I can't go backwards!

I've managed thus far- I can do it 🙂

Hi Irene... your coping just fine, well done.

Its one of the reasons I stick around, because ive learn't through bitter experience that even after a decent length of time away from gambling its still very easy just to wake up one day and start gambling again as if the time in between never happened. So I continue to read and write my thoughts, it helps to stay stopped.

Anyway, you wrote about those pesky thoughts and now they are history. keep safe and take care... S.A 🙂

Thanks SA

Day 211

Well I've sussed what was up yesterday with my dark mood. Awoke overnight feeling rotten- snuffly, headachey and generally washed out.........this is so unlike me, think I'm falling to bits! I can't remember the last time I had to take a "sick day" off work. Spent today cooried in on sofa- lots of fluid and paracetamol. My lovely sis brought me dinner.

Hopefully the lurgy will go as quickly as it arrived.

On a happier note, still gamble free 🙂

Oh no Irene, lucky you dont get Man flu, its fatal, 211 so proud of you!!

Phil

x

Hoping you will soon be lurgy free (love that word) Free that is, free from gambling. Like lurgy too but not as much as free.

xxx

Thanks x

Day 212

I'm really sick and tired of feeling sick and tired!! Still gamble free though!