Hi
In my life I have suffered many physical and emotional traumas and pains.
What I understand is that the pains I experienced much earlier in my life caused in me fears anxiety stress panick which I did not understand or was able to face and reduce.
It was important for me to find a path to a healthy healing and a healthy recovery.
I now understand that my anger was a very unhealthy reaction to my pains not being healed, my anger was a very unhealthy reaction to my fears not being faced or reduced, my anger was a very unhealthy reaction to my frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.
In my recovery I would understand that I had certain unhealthy emotional triggers.
My unhealthy emotional triggers were due to my pains not being healed, to my fears not being faced or reduced, my frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations, boredom not being productive in healthy ways, loneliness due to being a loner and fearing emotional intimacy.
My lies were due to my fears.
The recovery program helped me abstain from my unhealthy addictions and obsessions.
The recovery program helped me expose more of my self emotionally.
The recovery program and counselling helped me reduce my fears, increase my trust and open up more to more emotional intimacy.
The emotional intimacy also helped me heal the hurt inner child in me.
I am a non religious person yet I do embrace healthy spirtual vaues which my conscience is based up on.
By healing the hurt inner child in me, helped me in all of my new healthy realtionships.
Today I am abale to interact with all people in a very healthy way.
I do understand that when I react in unhealthy ways I hurt my self and people around me.
If I am living in the pains guilt and shame of my past I am not healing my pains.
If I am not being my healthy self and holding back I am living in fears.
Living in fear is and was very unhealthy for me.
Living in fear disabled me from living a full healthy life.
Posted : 30th January 2024 5:06 pm
