Problems after problems.

Hi there. It’s been 30 years for me and only in the past six months have I finally woken up my previous life was like living in the matrix totally self delusional 

So all I can say is that you have to keep switched on with all the weapons to beat the addiction stay close to family and best mates have triple lock financial controls on all cards and accounts and be held accountable to the closest person

 Best

Hi

I read success stories from others who have turned their life around. Learning to cope and getting stronger as each day passes. I ask myself, how do they do it? 

I found that all the time I m at recovery meetings I am not gambling, 

I found that all the time I m at recovery meetings I am not thinking or talking about gambling.

Healthy recovery meetings help us heal our pains. 

Healthy recovery meetings help us reduce and face our fears. 

Healthy recovery meetings help us reduce our unreasonable expections of people life and situations.

Healthy recovery meetings help us understand and write down our needs and get them done.

Healthy recovery meetings help us understand and write down our wants and get them done.

Healthy recovery meetings help us understand and write down our goals and get them done.

We learn from our unhealthy past, no longer living it in.

I have been a member of GA since 1971, the first time I knew my gambling was a form of self abuse

I needed to exchange unhealthy habits in tohealthy habits.

The addictions and obsesssions were just a form of escape and self abuse.

Locking myself away is not living ahealthy life.

Understanding what my emotional triggers were halped make my recovery very mcuh possible.

The Gambling was a very unhealthy habit for me.

The  Gambling establishments and betting office never stole my money.

I gave my money away freely.

I didn’t think I was like a normal person, I understand that I was emotionally vulnerable.

I now understand walking in to the recovery program I was a very unhealthy emotionally vulnerable child that never healed his pains.

The start of a new life is your healthy choice.

How much time and energy are you willing to put in to the rooms of recovery.

The more you invest of your self in to the  recovery program the more you get out of it.

Love peace and healing to eveery one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

managed 2 weeks and back to day 1.

After my initial message, It felt great, to voice my concerns with the gambling Community, reading the forums and feeling positive on my road to recovery.

As you can imagine, life at home is on the rocks. I’m scraping through to each pay check due to significant losses. I can see the way it’s going but somehow, I always get drawn in.

Ive been to different recovery sessions and find it a difficult one to stomach. I never finish a full programme over a set period - I tell myself I’m strong enough and don’t need help! To others, I’m perceived as a ‘happy’ person, does well at work etc. it’s like gambling takes a back seat once I’ve lost.

Today is my Fiancé’s birthday and here I am at 2am with the guilt of my actions.

I need to prioritise gambling over everything as I’ll end up with nothing. I’m curious to know the steps of those who have recovered. The way gambling makes you feel when you have a trigger moment through an advertisement, shop, scratch-card stand.

I’ll be back over the next few days and hope this diary will help another reader. I struggle, I admit it but stronger than ever to find my path to recovery!

I better get some sleep as I’ve got the fiancé’s birthday and we’ll see the ‘happy’ ‘me 😉 who’s great and full of enthusiasm.