Snow66 and Stephen67
Thank you for your support and good advice, you are good people and I appreciate it.
I have emailed forum admin and requested them to delete my profile.
I'm logging on and just seeing a string of my threads all in failure and its knocking me backwards.
I'm very upset, I will probably re-join again but for now I want to go.
I cannot make any contribution to the forum as I cannot even achieve 50 days, I feel like a fraud and my thread failures just make me feel battered and rotten.
I wish you ladies and gents the best in your fight.
I'm going, I cannot stomach seeing my failures it makes me feel depressed. I am disciplined and successful in my life but gambling has ruined what I could have achieved and right now I feel like i can't win at beating it, like its an infection I can't cure, that's what I'm thinking.
Apols for the negative post, I'm not in a good place and theres no point rolling my mood in glitter and pretending it's OK, it isn't.
All best, see you when I come back at some point.
Admin, please delete my profile and reclassify any posts I made as anonymous. It is in my best interests at this point. Ty.
Mate,
Don’t beat your self up, gambling does that and doesn’t need your help. Many of us before and many to come understand this present mind state. Delete your Gamcare life ? Why ? , it’s the human fight or flight emotion your going through and just by following your Gamcare life, I can quite clearly see that fight comes more naturally to you than flight. I think Admins post is good, stop concentrating on your debts, agreed that there a bind but there also negative and a bad thing to concentrate on, you can’t do any more than what your doing and that’s chipping away at them. possibly focus on what successes you have achieved and also the major steps you’ve made, visualise on where you want this trip to take you.
Breathe, keep learning and retweak your rediscovery and try a different approach.
I wish you well
Hope you can find the strebgth within you to fight back.The first member to welcome me and recognise the military life and skills that we can use to put our addiction right.
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