You can fall a thousand times

Starts with you Stephen but don't forget the help!

Determined .

Feeling grateful for a peaceful Sunday evening

Had a great day .

Good walk. Worked hard in work and got along with everyone . a peaceful day.

Decided I would go to a wedding in august that I was unsure about. Its important to not isolate myself.

Fully decided the blocks and how I would deal with next payday . a relief to have a confirmed plan.

Very thankful for the day

Stephen

Your last post has brightened up my day - what a difference in you from a week ago. Hope you stay on here for a while as a safety net - stay positive and good luck.

Thanks Gameparentanon , appreicate the message.

Another peaceful day. I value a good day in work, some banter with the lads and no drama.

Head is starting to clear. Im looking forward.

I will not try to negetiate with gambling again. No such thing as just one bet.

Take care people

Grateful for a positive day

Wishing people the best success.

I slipped again. Tomorrow is my birthday and every year i ve spent it drinking in my room on my own promising myself it would change. Time to change now.

Gotta tell my cousin I can't go to his wedding next week.

Stephen

You may have slipped up but it's still not too late to rectify but I am going to be straight with you - the alcohol and cutting yourself off from people will not help with your recovery. You seem to have been doing really well. If you can pick yourself up once then you can do it again. If you are struggling to get support with your home, friends or work then keep posting on here and talking to the counsellors and other forum members.

I hope you feel better about yourself soon.

Just wanted to check in.

I went to the wedding. I returned my recently bought clothes to the shop and got a refund. Pretended they didnt fit me. Just wanted to share the madness of gambling.

I have been working hard the last two weeks in work. Doing overtime and making an effort to get along with everyone. Im trying to change my focus and concentrate on work.

I dont have a phone anymore. To be honest im finding that helpful.

I can do this. I can stop gambling. I know theres a good life for me if i stop gambling. I need to work hard on that

T

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Taking a break from life. Deleting all social media and asked gamcare to delete my account.

Look after yourself.

Hello Stephen2105,

Sounds like you might be having a difficult time. Through your diary you've mentioned at various points the way you can sometimes feel an inclination to disconnect and to isolate, especially during difficult times following a relapse. At other times you've mentioned how you've felt helped by connecting and using support, for example during May when you were attending GA meetings, going for counselling, and working out at the gym.

If you've been feeling depressed lately, how about talking with your GP about that? If you don't feel like using the forum, would something like a local GA meeting be more nourishing for you? If you're still based in the republic of Ireland then you might be aware of additional local resources, as you have posted about attending counselling in the past.

You've written about your tendency to neglect yourself and about your feelings of worthlessness, but also of your plans to practise better self-care and to value yourself more; perhaps now is a time to reconnect with those good intentions to be kinder to yourself and to treat yourself better.

Take care,

Forum Admin.

Stephen

Can maybe understand about cutting down on the social media but there is no harm in keeping this account open. Call it a safe haven to come to every now and again to talk - even if it's just one sentence. I have followed your journey over the past few months and you have done really well with trying all the right things for recovery and it sounds like you nay have fond it all too exhausting but that is probably a natural part of the recovery process - you will go up and down loads of times and want to give up. Please do not give up now and please stay with us on here and keep talking and try not to isolate yourself - I can see you have made an effort to join in so it can be done. Let Forum and me know you are ok.

Take care

Gam