1167 days and not gambled.

Hello everyone, 

New years eve.. I wish you all a successful year of overcoming gambling. 

It's been tough to overcome, I accepted the counselling that was offered here.

I also have all the stops in place where it is impossible for me to gamble.

Three years and 19 days, I had a almost wobble where I was absolutely desperate to gamble rung a well known bingo site and asked if I could join, thank god I have the 5 year ban, was told I have another 3 yrs so it was smack in the middle of the lockdowns when I started getting that anxious feeling that I had to sabotage myself in losing the money I had saved.

What I do now might seem compulsive, as now I check my bank account 3 or 5 times a day, I know down to the last penny where my money is, I keep records of it on notepad, what goes in and out of the bank and my purse. 

I've saved up enough for a deposit for a mortgage, bought a car outright, even paid in full a funeral plan which might sound odd but just being in control of myself keeping me going. 

I hope when I hit the 5th year I don't fall back as I did when I hit 3rd year the last time, although I didn't have any stops in place then. 

I only really logged in to see my days counter I'm happy with that. 

Keep going, it's tough but worth it. 

Keep safe ? ❤️.