5 months and kind of ok

Hello guys. Never posted for a while and wanted a quick chat as I feel ok but kind of failed. When I first joined I was getting worse and worse by the week at gambling it all came to a halt when I ended up spending 800 quid in an instant win site. Anyways since then life had been amazing didn’t gamble for ages family life is better and I feel best I have ever felt. But I have had a few relapses if you can call it that. I went out with friends just before Christmas and ended up putting 20 pound in a fruit machine in the club and lost. Since new year I bought a couple of scratch cards at shop and ended up winning 40 pound. Last week I also won money from Irish lottery from a syndicate at work. I’m not spending much on gambling basicly nothing but have won some money and don’t know how I feel about it. Is the odd scratch card every couple of month ok and the 2 quid a week I spend at work on lottery? I’m a total different person now and better off but am I just a gamble still with the small amounts I do? I’m confused as if a little is ok or I should just stop completely. Sorry for the long rabble guy good luck and thanks for listening