I was doing so well, i don't know what i can do.

Hi everyone, 

I was gamble free for a couple of weeks, i was doing very well. It all stemmed from my partner finding out, and i knew deep down that if i gambled it would be the end of us. 

And yet i still gambled, i found a way to do it even knowing what the outcome could be the urge was too great to give it a go. 

She's found out and was extremely angry among other things, i'm away with work (overseas for a few months) so i called her up after she asked to see my bank statements knowing i couldn't show them. 

I just don't know how to stop!

I'm fairly sure it's going to be the end of the relationship and i wouldn't blame her for making that decision! 

Anyways, this is more of a journal i suppose to vent, any words of wisdom please send them my way! 

Edit: When confronted i said it was only the last day of gambling and then i ultimatlely said that was a lie and i was the last week. I don't know why i'm lying to her about it, in my head it made sense at the time to make it sound less severe. Crazy, i know!