HI CW
Things have been pretty tough, we've talked lots, looked at the future and he insists on me giving him 6 months or so to prove to me that he has changed. The days when he is away are nice and peaceful, although even those days I am still so upset the majority of the time when I get home, I think from trying to hold the work life together without breaking down, that the minute I get home it's time to release the waterfall and let go. But not nice for my son to see and he has really suffered this last week or so, not wanting to go to school, and complaining of suspected stomach upsets etc. I have now informed the school and asked if they have any counselling service or anyone that he can talk to. So let's hope they come up trumps, he said he does want to talk about things with someone else other than us, I suppose because he knows I'm having counselling so thinks that is the right thing to do. Its been 3 weeks since I told him how I feel, but I'm still feeling controlled by him, although he is trying to stay out of my way as much as possible. It's hard living under the same roof, and trying to live separate lives, but time will tell I suppose. I'm just trying to get through a couple of hours without crying at the moment, that's a feat in itself some days.
i think I've reached the point of no return, but small steps for now.
Take care
Kitkat
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