4 Days!

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Hi mjh87, I'm replying to your post on my thread. First of all, congratulations for your 4days gamble free, you have stepped up and are willing to give it another go on your fight to be gamble free....good for you! I absolutely agree about the struggle to get over the amount of money I have lost/wasted to the world of online gambling! I have read through a few posts tonight and decided that I must forget that money now, it's gone and nothing a can do about it. To be honest the way my head has been for the past few years, I would never of won in reality because even if I won £10,000 sooner or later all that money would be back on online banking ....because I again Would be chasing that next £1000. The likelihood of it happening is very slim and again would become a seriously, awful cycle. I have snapped and had enough of feeling so c**P, ashamed, embarrassed when I work d**n hard like most people who gamble and we give it away so easily. I want to sit back at the end of the month, feet up, more debt paid off, bit of money in the bank and feel proud, of the fact that I can feel good about the money I've earnt. Pay day was great, but also the devil as usually by the next day 3/4 of mine was gone. I'm sick of struggling when In reality I shouldn't be, as i have two jobs and between both should have a decent wage, but I never have anything to show for it! Sorry for the rambling, but what I'm trying to say is we just need to try and get in our heads and understand that what ever money we won we would never be happy, we'd want that next £100 or £1000. Win £5000, I will play another )£1000 and bank £4000, oh well I'm up so I'll play another £1000 and so on and before we know it our balance says £0. That sick to the bottom of your stomach feeling, shame, guilt, embarrassment we need to try and remember those feelings. That feeling has stopped me from wanting to gamble at the moment. My major goal at the moment is being debt free and starting to build up a small emergency fund. Stay strong, keep writing on here as the more support your get the more confidence it gives you to not try and win the loss. Apologies if your int find this helpful, just sharing what is helping me at the moment. C x

I am lucky I am debt free at the moment. The money I lost was savings which basically was all interest from money I had been saving for a few years. The majority of the money I lost was winnings but now I just keep thinking to the day i did it like, why did I have to do that why did I keep going back to that online site. I should of just been happy withthe money I had which was plenty and I should of put it too good use.

Originall I lost money and I was lucky enough to make that money back up and more thats when I stopped for the month, Just when the month was coming to an end is when I started thinking well if I won that much before then I can do it again. I know that is stupid and the trap we all fall into but as its still not even a week ago it is still very much fresh in the mind. I haven't told any family members yet or my partner, I feel sick to my stomach to do so. I dread going back home from my little break today and getting back into my normal routine!