Relapsed

Oliboii relapse is hard to stomach...feels like all hard work undone.
I suggest u read read read and the advice hrre is brilliant!
Sleep time

Many thanks, Joseph. Yes, I do feel as though that is what has happened here, and feeling guilty this morning. A few Thoughts of should I try and win the money back, but fighting back well. I have no intention of playing today, or again...
Appreciate your kind words

Hi Oliboii,

What barriers did you put up to stop you from gambling for 2 months? If they were only mental barriers you must now appreciate you need others. Self excluding, blockers etc.......

You're not the first to relapse, so learn for the mistake, look at the damage you've caused yourself, all the hard work of the 2 months prior undone in a matter of seconds, plus probably money that you've saved. Put new the loses behind you and start again. Don't think about "chasing" it will only lead to more pain. I hated losing at anything (still do really) so combined with my gambling addiction I would chase and chase more.

Look my friend you are 20. Like justjoeseph says have a good look around on this forum and look at how gambling wrecks lives. You get one go at the "life thing" don't waste it. Becoming a compulsive gambler at an early age puts you on the back foot straight away. When friends get their own cars, girlfriends, flats, mortgages, jobs, just to name a few, its fact gamblers get left behind, the ones who don't have money to enjoy life to the full.

Someone posted a comment on this forum the other day regarding "that bloke in the pub always on the bandit" I've seen him, as have many people all around the UK, just wasting his life on the slots. I really related to this comment, I don't want to be him, but my addiction to on-line gambling was making me into my own version of this guy. No matter what form of gambling we carry out, us addicts cannot control it, therefore it takes over and eventually wrecks our lifes and the others closest to us.

All the best young man.

Hi Shep,

They were just mental blockers, but I have spoken to GamCare this morning on the phone and have added a proxy on My laptop to block any sites...

The most frustrating part of it all is the fact i really work hard to have that Lifestyle and have thrown a lot of it away. I'm still comfortable thank goodness, not in any debts or loans etc, but it has started to take it's toll on a couple of my businesses.

I am really keen to nip it in the bud at an early stage as have realised that stopping it now and learning from this can make my later Life a lot easier!

Really apprecaite your kind words mate!

Have A Great Day!

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Hi,

Nice of you to be honest and say that gambling has effected your work and business. I can relate to that fact.

Losing £20 or £20K is too much, especially when you don't know when to stop. Think as a business man what you could have done with that money? For example, as part of your business plan you devised a way to save £20K over three years and was successful in doing so, you'd be well happy with yourself. The sad matter of fact is that this is the amount you have already lost to gambling plus the time when your business brain hasn't been functioning correctly again losing money. You can be successful without gambling, it sounds as your on your way, so don't spoil your chances of a good life.

I would highly recommend GA meetings to you. There not smoked full rooms full of homeless addicts. Far from it, people from all backgrounds of life sharing the same problem. It will be a good eye opener for you believe me.

All the best.

allainepo, I'm really sorry to hear the trouble you are in. I know ths is little consellation in your position but that mamoth text there must have taken you some time to write, and trust me, yourself and everyone else who have comment have opened My Eyes even more...

My dream is to own a house/place/cabin - even a caravan by a lake which is what I am focusing more even more now. Trying to work out ways of actually getting to that and getting a mortgage and achieveing this, and this is all motivating me even more to do so. I will keep you all updated.

allainepo, the example of the girl is important to me, as I have recently got with a girl I have been Seeing for 7 months where she has seen me loose that money self harm because of it (not serious) and also at my good stages...
I spoke to her Today and told her what had happened, and she didnt have much to say other that she Knows I'm better than it and she Hopes I can do it. I can do it. I will do it...
As for your problems mate, I really hope you sort everything out and can start a-fresh soon! Start a campaign like I am and work Toward Your goals (Y)

Shep72, again - I really appreciate your kind words... You're absolutely right I could have invested it so much better and kick myself for not doing so. But lesson learnt now. Having anxiety, I am very cautious about the situations I put myself in. I will 100% look at going to a GA meeting/talk soon.

Hope You Both Have A Good Evening.