Becca

I gamble on line I have put my family in financial debt I have lied about where the money is and paying one bill and not another I need to stop I have blocked sites and set them up in my husbands name I am ashamed I feel so sick as spent £500 just the other night thinking one more go I will win so I called this group they said about a chat room so here I am x

I am at a all time low 2 days ago I have lied to my husband saying they took double direct debts and there putting it back I Carnt explain why I sit up at night playing these games I hate it I just think one more go I will win and I didn’t the feeling when I won was great but the feeling I have today I very hard I Carnt sleep I feel sick disgusting in my self , hate myself , to put my family through all this never having money to say yes let’s have a nice day out cos of me so day I looked this page up joined I need help … 

@beccas45 hi ? I can totally understand were your at I did exactly the same but uve made the first step admitting you have a problem and coming on here and asking for help that's a huge step well done.  

I feel ur pain but you can do this I blocked every single thing I could find to stop too even my partners phone just to stop any temptation I also got counselling and they are amazing they talk to you about everything thr triggers why we do.do it and how we can help ourselves. 

I also rang the drs and told them.everything too they ring every 3weeks just to check in and see how I am.

My last bet was 2nd May this year and I have been gf since there is lots of help to get you through there is a one to one chat you can do with an advisor on here and also a group chat the group chat is were we all.come together and share our stories and also our ways of getting through all this copeing mechanisms and how to get through make this thread ur diary and post as much as you can it's best to get it all.out x

Be proud of yourself your here you want this new journey x

@littlemix thank you for your message am laid here just sobbing thinking of how to explain this to a family member I am so scared xx

@beccas45 I get you but I'd you don't tell them they can't help you...

You've been so brave coming on here to say what's been going on I'm sure they would help you times a great healer and you've got this I'm here anytime if u want to talk as you go through this there are many different phases of it emotions  x

The more we do things the better we get at doing them. So ask yourself. Do you want to ge better at doing what you do?

The routine needs to stop. The only way is not hiding in fantasy land and thinking it is all going to be ok. That is where the real danger is. You are being lied to atm by your own mind. It wants you to stay with the lights and excitement and it will tell you all kinds of things to keep you there.

CBT is a great therapy form that will help you restructure some of that bad data you are processing. The support here can direct you in where to go and get that help. 

Remember. Keep calm stand up dust yourself off and keep on walking. There is always something more you can do and if you start now you will be in a different and better situation tomorrow.

I wish you well

Best

C