Day 1 on my GF journey. I am back here after 20 odd years of gambling on and off. Yesterday I actually hated the person I become. The lies, loses and debt due to gambling loses. Never thought gambling would drive me to the stage it affected me that much I hated myself and the person I have become. I am a compulsive gambler and will never be able to control gambling. As soon as one bad result goes against me the chase becomes scary and never happy till I lose everything. Today I felt better as I seemed free in some way. Taking it day by day on building a GF future. All support will be much appreciated.Â
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I would strongly suggest going onto the 8pm chatroom each night. I've received loads of advice that's really helped and from the live chat as well
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Utmost love to you fellow suffer ❤️
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I do get scared when I hear about relapse. I still don't have the answers, today I'm just trying to have faith again, In. Similar experience to you.Â
When you say on and off, I guess sadly, it can be that, but doesn't have to be likewise. Sometimes I feel like I could have really not given heed to a relapse, and I just became immature. I really don't know, maybe didn't have the power.
Have faith in the good. I hope everything repairsÂ
Day 1 on my GF journey. I am back here after 20 odd years of gambling on and off. Yesterday I actually hated the person I become. The lies, loses and debt due to gambling loses. Never thought gambling would drive me to the stage it affected me that much I hated myself and the person I have become. I am a compulsive gambler and will never be able to control gambling. As soon as one bad result goes against me the chase becomes scary and never happy till I lose everything. Today I felt better as I seemed free in some way. Taking it day by day on building a GF future. All support will be much appreciated.Â
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Well done for just opening up and admitting how you feel it's important and so brave of you to admit this!,,, have you spoke with your family and friends about it? Ste.
Keep at it, you’re doing amazing. you have no idea how much your life will change, and those of that around you. From a partner of a man in recovery ❤️Â
no I have suffered in silence. No way I could tell my wife as it would finish us. All the lies of why I have needed money to constantly cover us loses. If I don’t stop gambling I will end up mentally fried for ever. I have now realised I hate the person I have become. I need to take it day by day and become the better person I can be. On day 3. Small steps. Just need to keep on here and keep explaining my journey to help me and others.
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thanks for the advice. Will give the chats ago. Being round people who understand how hard it is will help.Â
Hi New Hope
How are you getting on ?
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Hi New Hope and Safi, how are you both getting on with your recovery journey ?
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