What can I say,
addiction is on a different level. It's now come to the point where I have realised and accepted that death is actually the only thing that will stop me from gambling, not saying I will ever take my own life because I would never! But what I'm saying is if my time came ASAP my last thoughts wouldn't be 'let me live'.
It's hard to think of myself as a gambling addict that will stop at nothing. Because I'm usually the person that never loses hope in nothing .
I'm here telling you all that don't even know me, because I can't tell it to the people that do know me.. I'm telling you that I have given up. There is no coming back for me . I will continue to live but I have let go inside. I have no fight left in me.
I had no idea feeling this low was even possible .
I am done
Gambling has won and I have lost
I have everything any one would ever need in life, some really unfortunate people would call it perfect. But nothing is enough for me. I replace the good life with this evil , and that will always be my story .
Never ending until it ends.
Hello rayan
Your mood sounds so low. It's a posive thing that you say you would never end your life, but the title of your thread suggests you are struggling to find anything positive about life which is worrying. You have posted here before and forum users have welcomed you with advice on the tools in the box to help you. Try re-reading their advice and also the stories in the Success Stories section, so you can hear from people who have demonstrated that it's possible to recover from this.
And please, if you are feeling that there is no point to life seek help - call the Samaritans on 08457 90 90 90 or contact your GP. For more support on how to stop, access to counselling and signposting to Gamblers Anonymous and other support agencies, you can call the GamCare helpline on 0808 8020 133, or you can webchat to us on the Netline. Both are open 8am to midnight every day.
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Gambling shouldn't be legal
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Hi rayan I felt like you a few weeks ago lost the fight and will. But have abstained and beginning to feel me again. I think gambling destroys us we become someone else in moments of madness and we don't see things for what they are anymore. Its a hard battle but it IS worth fighting.
Dust yourself down go out for a walk or whatever and smile. You can start feeling better one step at a time.
I have found exercising is helping you feel good and releases all those endorphins.
Keep your chin up things will get better be strong.
I feel like this everyday, should we do it togther lol m
seriously dont do anything daft im one day clean and i feel more then ever to go and spend my ladt £50 on rainbow richs. I feel so angry its untrue
There is a gargantuan difference between your gambling problem person and your gambling addict.
I'm not going to tell you there's an answer Rayan but I've felt like you are now many times and i've bounced back but i've needed to get serious and on going help and support
Gambling has beaten me no doubt. That i know.
I have felt like u are now more than once. Only days ago I did it again and seriously contemplated how to end it all painlessly. But it's not the answer. We are strong. We can do this. Gambling may always affect our lives in some way but it WONT win. We won't continue to be dishonest about it. We won't let it change our personality and our lives. We WILL win. I hope your feeling better today but please come back and chat and let us know how u r doing. Every day is a new day and there will come a day when this doesn't dominate us xx
Hi is it you who has just been on chat tonight. Just been reading through your posts. Amazing to see how far you have came since writing this post! you are in a much better place. Huge congratulations!!
rayan wrote:
Gambling shouldn't be legal
gamecare won,t agree as the massive profits they make actually run this forum , they know all too well how destructive it is but to much in £££ in the goverment coffiers constantly
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