Been on this site on & off over the past year in an attempt to seize the iniative and knock my gambling on the head before it truly gets out off hand. The money i lose is obviously a massive issue but im just as concerned with time involved & a repeat pattern of win loss chase which i can even bizarrly see coming when im having a so called good spell.
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The thing about my gambling is that i will get myself into a false dawn of hope where by i will think that i have (I must stress not cracked it,im not that foolish!)but have learned to bet responsibly. I will also think because i bet 90% on football on which i do have a very good knowledge base , that im using a set of skills more akin to a share dealer or nonsense to that affect.
THE REALITY
Is yes i may have the ability to win hundreds off pounds off small stake accumulaters. But what i do not have is an ability to then not lose the money ive made without lumping larger & larger amounts chasing the money ive initialy made off a £5/10 anyway. Its a ridiculous sceanario but in the past few weeks ive been absoulty flying only too let myself down with this stupid chasing-Ive now lost £700 in the last week & also hit the bottle and missed a day off work drowining my sorrows.Im now facing serious disciplinary action regarding this as my self confidence had taken such a battering i didnt even call in for several hours after my shift had commenced.
Ive not bet since Saturday and would like to keep clean but i know it will only take a couple off bets to be made & win and the cycle could start again. I feel so foolish for wasting my life away betting on Football when all my friends are having kids and moving on with there lives. I just need to see a way off realising the bad times are part of a destructive element within me that I cant really control.
Anyway will read the forum and try to stay positive. One day i would like to look back on this stage off my life and smile knowing i did have it in me to get back my life and stop the rot.
All the best to everyone in the struggle,.
Hi, I too have lots £000's on football and to top it off anything I win goes on roulette.
I started my journey back yesterday when I joined and felt the strangest feeling whilst watching the champions league, I got bored. I didn't have a bet on it.
I have decided to change my lifestyle as I have too much time to sit about waiting for an urge.
Don't let it ruin your life.
Good luck.
Hi Heisenberg (How good was Breaking bad eh)...
Firstly congratulations on making it onto Gamcare and knowing you have to do something with your problem.
Everyone on this site has been through or is going through everything you are and even more mate, so remember you are not along - Its a problem that's clearly getting more and more people hooked in thanks to the ease of gambling (FOBTs, Phones, every second advert, etc)... But everyone here will help in any way possible, thats what ive noticed, how nonjudgmental and caring everyone is. People on here are the best medicine to beat this addiction.
Its a horrible addiction mate, ive been gambling for around 10 years and lost around probably £20,000 - Visited this site 21 days ago, not placed a bet since and found this site to be so healthy for my recovery. I hate gambling mate, I hate what its turned me into a lying, cheap, sneaky, deluded, money-worried man and the only way to get the real and better person back is by not gambling ever again. It is a hard road, but stories on here will hopefully inspire you to go down it because i believe it does get better and a life without gambling is a much better life.
The only advice i could advise for you mate, is create a recovery diary and write in it everything you feel, good or bad, urges or no urges, and that will work wonders for you - Well it has for me because people will comment and spur you on during moments of darkness. Read read read lots of diary's mate, it'll help so much - Seeing other peoples positions, journeys and advice, it is really an amazing tool and you will soon get addicted to reading posts, haha (Much better addiction than lumping on a 4/6 shot that doesn't come in).
I get what you mean about your knowledge for football makes you think you could win money with football gambling, im similar my knowledge is ok, but it is random at the end of the day, totally random. Sendings off happen, teams dont turn up, its far too unpredictable - Thats why there are around 8 bookies on every high street now! We feed this industry. Your cold cash spent on nothing, nothing to show for it - Its so devastating when you analyse it, but the moneys gone and we cant get it back. I understand about your £10 accum's winning and then s******g it up by big lumps, but its because we cant stop betting. Its not even money you get from winning a bet, its just betting credit that will soon go back into the bookies hands - You know it will! Losing the bet and therefore coming on here is the best outcome! The only way to truly win mate is by not doing it.
Honestly pal, write a diary, look at other peoples diary's and that will motivate you. You got it in you to stop boss, you just got to stay focused, dont let your guard down when urges come in and do anything else to fill the void where you once gambled!
All the best mate,
Drew
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