currently closing accounts as i speak

hi,

It's 03.45 in the morning and I'm currently on live chat to Ronald at w**********l closing one of many accounts. I've just closed down other accounts and I will stay up till its done. I have numerous phone calls to make about my debts and work out debt plans with at least 4 companies I know of without going through my unopened envelopes. So I hope today, 13/04/2015 will be a new day in my life where I can be free from lining the pockets of the bookmaker. I gone through some of the threads and even though you feel alone, I obviously am not. I have a banging headache from looking at the computer screen hoping some team in south america will score again, I need glasses and well I can't afford them o my house is untidy to.. I've been up since 9am today and lost around £200. It might be another week eating rice. I started gambling 6/7 years ago and never stopped, but now it's***t me hard, envelopes have gone from white to brown and well it won't be long before someone is knocking at the door and not asking for a cup of sugar. I feel so angry with myself, let myself down but also strangely feel slightly better already knowing I'm taking my first steps before I'm sprinting off on something I can afford to do. When I wake up I'm going to open all this mail and work out what I owe and write down what I can afford. Make some calls and go from there. What I would do for a good nights sleep!! I hope I made you smile as you read this as its not all doom and gloom.. I actually quite like rice. x