Day 1 again

Hi Ashleigh

I can resonate with your feelings. I never really gave up in the 44 years I gambled so I don't know what a relapse is like but 8 weeks GF I know how hard this is and it's going to take a lot of work, determination and the rest of my life to battle the addiction which is an illness

It was good to meet you on the chatroom tonight and I hope you can come each day in the future. The chatrooms have kept me GF and on this road of recovery. I have received amazing advice from people on there. None of us can do this on our own

8 weeks ago I was struggling after putting all the blocks in place. I was tired and kept sleeping but that's ok, we've all messed with our brains for so many years. I felt hopeless and depressed so went to my GP and got referred. Chatrooms and GA helped a lot but I was clicking the live chat help button and speaking to the advisors every day several times per day and they really helped. Along with the great advice from the long time gamble free people on the chatrooms and at GA it's been a life saver. Don't get me wrong, I don't think for one minute I will ever leave recovery and beat the addiction as I know it's always going to be there 

Stuart

@lp5vut869c thank you for your kind words , I have tried to talk to people close to me but nobody truly understands,  they just think why don't you just stop as if I hadn't thought of that myself . I hate that I have no control over it . I only started a couple of years ago and would be so sensible at first but it took hold of me quickly and I no its the chasing losses that's my biggest problem so I just need to stay away completely . I've always been so sensible with my money in other aspects of my life so the shame I feel when I looses everything is unbearable . Yes I will be at the group again today it's nice to talk to people who don't judge and actually understand

Hi Ashleigh I know that feeling well, it's almost too easy to just give in and so stick with the support on here, this is my day 1 and I'm gonna really try n do this, I know that feeling of winning few times n then losing its just the worse fedling in the world but we can support each other on chat. How may days in are you. Look at the machines as a toxic poison n you don't want that toxicity of a machine taking all Yr money any more, you want to feel free, you can do this 💯

@jennyj hi jenny I'm now on day 3 , I was doing really well before this after even a bigger loss before but I can't cope with the horrible cycle anymore and rethis is the first time I have ever reached out and spoke to anybody about it . I fell like its been a help being with people who understand what we are feeling . Day 1 is always the hardest but your are right we can do this together 💯

Hiya

At least you are tackling it early on. From experience it only gets worse

Stuart

@lp5vut869c Hi stu yes getting support early on essential, I've gambled for 30 years on n off n always thought I could win n not lose much but something takes ova you wen you start to lose n you don't want to leave your money in a machine it feels like you've been robbed, yes it's a vicious circle but you always lose more than u win, its very clever how they get you hooked but just not worth the anxiety n heartache it causes, esp that moment u walk out after losing loads it's the worse feeling ever. I never want to feel like that ever again. Torture

Hi, this is my day 1 too. I came clean 2 days ago to my partner about my compulsive online gambling that I have been concealing for the past few years.  I’ve fell victim to online slots, spending every spare penny I’ve had on them.  Constantly waiting for pay day telling myself if I just bet some more I’ll win it all back, but it never happens does it, constantly chasing the losses.I’m so ashamed, embarrassed, disgusted, I can’t believe I have allowed myself to become an addict. Today is the start of my journey to face this head on. Sending love and healing to us al x

Hi Ashleigh

How is it all going today ?

Stuart