Had a very bad week last week! Lost £1400!! Still paying back debts run up over the last few years and still can’t believe I got sucked into this madness. Last week I was like a zombie, playing until early hours, trying to win some back but just losing more and more. I’m not sure how I’ll make it through this month.
I’ve now installed GameStop and it’s been 3 days GF I can beat this but have a long journey now making up for what I’ve lost and I’ve put my family in a bad financial position from my stupidness! Can’t stop thinking about it! I’m so ashamed of myself! Why have I done this. It’s like a demon takes over my brain and I can’t stop.
I’m just glad I stopped before I totally ruined everything but not far off it. With prices increasing just hope we can survive!
gambling is the worst thing ever and something should be done because I’m not a stupid person and just goes to who’s anyone can get caught in this trap and it destroys you.
Hi. I'm in the same situation only just started on this journey but already fallen. It is so so difficult to tell our feelings about what we have done and also the guilt and feeling ashamed . My husband and family only know half the tale far to ashamed to tell whole story.
It is a journey we have chosen to take to help us and to get our lives back. Keep strong there will always be set backs but we will get there. X
Can’t believe how many people fall in the trap. Nearly day 4 and feeling a lot more relieved knowing I won’t be sat up til early hours getting myself in more trouble and after a few hours sleep wake with the sick feeling and checking the damage from the night before. Absolute madness.
I’m very down and it will take a while to dig myself out of the financial damage I’ve caused but I do feel this is the beginning of the end of this endless circle of s**t.
At the moment I can’t forgive myself the mess I’ve caused. Does it get easier?
Can’t believe how many people fall in the trap. Nearly day 4 and feeling a lot more relieved knowing I won’t be sat up til early hours getting myself in more trouble and after a few hours sleep wake with the sick feeling and checking the damage from the night before. Absolute madness.
I’m very down and it will take a while to dig myself out of the financial damage I’ve caused but I do feel this is the beginning of the end of this endless circle of s**t.
At the moment I can’t forgive myself the mess I’ve caused. Does it get easier?
Hi Sarah
I had my money locked away and saved for a special occasion i took out 2k last week and I started going at it again. Win loose then constant losses and chasing. My final sessions were £250 each and the most I got up is £60. You cannot win nothing from this. I am also broken had to take time out now. Have no motivation to work , called in sick to my job. I know how your feeling. I feel to live of the gov for the rest of my life and even then sometimes I loose everything. But when I work hard this is what happens. It's truly heartbreaking. I may find strength to do this cbt course.we will see.your not alone your story is identical to mine last week. We can not win on these games. They're rigged. I've been to rehab , been GA, counselling, you name it.
Hi Sarah,
I created a diary of emotions thoughts and feeling of how I felt when I was at my lowest with gambling. I’m only 2 months into it however if I ever feel think about gambling I begin to re read the diary I created and realise I am in a far better state than I was previously and by retuning to gambling would only make me feel this way again.
sometime in the moment it’s difficult to zoom out and see the bigger picture of the situation. With everything it takes time however this is something that has currently worked for me.
Jon
So I’m on day 6! Feeling a lot better. Have gone nearly a week without sitting up until early hours watching the reels spin. Maybe getting more sleep has helped. Still absolutely gutted the amount of money and time I’ve lost. Need to do extra hours at work to catch up with the loses but trying to stay positive.
wish I could rewind but just need to look forward to a brighter and gamble free future. Still feel the foggy head feeling and that anxious feeling. Wake up with dread thinking I’ve lost money the night before but minutes later relieved I haven’t. Only a week. Hopefully it gets better and better.
had urges everyday but managed to distract myself.
good luck everyone
I'm new here, day 7! Ive spent a while reading through posts, getting some great advise along the way!
I hope you are well?
Well I had quite a bad month. Lost a lot agsin and now know I have to stop. Just did the CBT test and the results were pretty bad so waiting for my email to start the course. It’s like half my brain is normal and saying stop this is madness and the other half is saying, come on bet some more you will win big! Why do I always listen to the bad side! It’s like I’ve been taken oven by the devil! It doesn’t feel like me doing this sitting there till early hours ruining my life!!! It is the strangest thing ever, addition I suppose but why don’t I ever listen to the part of me that is saying “don’t do it” the part of me that knows this is stupid!!!!
enough is enough, and my reasonable self is taking over now! No more!
it’s nice actually to be sitting here writing rather that spinning those wheel! I feel a lot calmer!
so day 1 starts again! Here we go, I can do this ?
yes i relapsed aswell Sarah it is the devil indeed. was getting urges 3 hours before payment was due started watching videos then bam was at the venue 12 on dot
Reading your post Sarah this sounds like me I've had problems for past 10 years. Have you excluded yourself from all online sites you can do this on Gamstop?
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