Finally decided to sign up after a serious rollercoaster ride

Welcome Pav, well done on admitting you need to stop. It takes a long time before we can actually and see the hold gambling grips on us.. Its also really nice to see that you have a supportive partner who is very understanding. Your in a really good position at the moment that you do not owe debts due to gambling so keep that as leverage of why you should not gamble in future.

Lastly have you put all blocks in place now, gamstop, gamban and blocking gambling transactions with your bank.

If you feel at the moment your not strong enough maybe ask your partner to manage your finances for a little while till your in a position where you won't go and gamble.

Take care and good luck

Posted by: Pavalova22

Hello Everyone 

I have always found myself here after a gambling binge, reading people’s stories and to try shake myself up to the reality that all gamblers are losers in the long run. Yet now I’ve decided it’s the final straw so decided to join and post my story... 

I have always liked a gamble but normally had it under control - betting only a small amount and cashing what ever win I can get. However since last year, partly due to corona restrictions I found myself upping the stakes, spending more time gambling online and in turn losing a lot of money at the time. 

I decided to self exclude for 6 months and take a break - I was genuinely happier not thinking about playing roulette but as soon as I got the email telling me it’s over I decided to have another go. The first few days were good I actually managed to make a bit of extra money but then as I’m sure you all know the downward spiral started - first with a small loss followed by a much bigger loss chasing. I am currently down. - not sure of exact figure as played on different sites. 

I am sick to my stomach that I have let myself get to this stage. I always thought after a loss and reading some stories on here that it would put me back on the straight and narrow as I didn’t want to be one of those people who racks up debt due to this horrible addiction  In fact I didn’t even consider myself an addict. 

Now thankfully I never touched my savings in this time and the money I almost was alsmost always from my wages but that doesn’t change the fact I sank so much money down the drain when in reality I’m normally quite clever with my spending habits. 

I have always been spiritual and believe money is not the most important thing - I can clean to my wife and I wanted her to shout and scream at me what an idiot I am but she is just the best. She said stop now and forget the past - what’s done is done. 

I’m ready to stop for sure I don’t want to give another penny to the online casinos It is completely different then being in a real casino - never ever would I take (Large amounts of cash) with me but with online the money leaves my account like it’s only just numbers on a screen. Very dangerous. 

My plan now is to work harder to try recoup what I lose the honest way. 

Thank you for reading my story if any of you have any other advice then I am all ears. 

Pav

 

 

 

 

 

Oh man. Hope it does well. Roulette is also my downfall and I'm only 18. It's such a bitter sweet game. And I can't stop but the problem is I don't want to stop ?

hello,

thanks for taking the time to read my post and replying. 

I do consider myself lucky that I am not in debt but it doesn’t change the fact I wasted an insane amount of money. 

I have closed all accounts and an added touch is I am currently working abroad which means I don’t have access to any new sites due to restrictions post Brexit - not that I would want to. 

I always practiced mindfulness and gratitude and right now meditation to learn to let go of the past and to get over the money losses but it still creeps up on me - my mind telling me how can I be so stupid? That money could have gone to a 1000 better things like paying a lump sum off my mortgage etc. 

If any one is reading this I URGE you to stop now. Last year my losses were half but after restarting thinking I could reduce my losses I am now facing losses over double. Problem with us gamblers is even when we are up we can’t comprehend to just cash out and walk away. 

So true - so bittersweet. Bitter when we lose and sweet when we win - the game is designed with this knowledge but ultimately the house has the edge and will take all your money. You are 18 so better you hit it on the head now. If I started at your age who knows where I would be now. I am lucky I was already a bit more mature to realise it’s the devils wheel and will only drain you mentally and financially. 

Better listen to those who didn’t stop and heed their advice. Best of luck