Finally I am letting it all go.....

Hi all,

I have finally made my first honest and personal decision to let gambling go in my life,after at least 20-30 years of hiding some inner hurt that has had me chained to compulsive gambling I am letting it all go.Not an easy decision but the right one for me to enjoy more of my life and to steady my mental health,which has been getting battered during these years with far to many highs and terrible lows.

I am tired being unable to take family for meals or drinks as I would normally have very little cash to my self even though I have a well enough paid job . I have even accepted the debt I have been left with as my responsibility to repay, which in all honesty is cheap to get my life on track again. I have self excluded for all places I use and feel so much stronger for doing so,as anyone who really knows me would tell you I was a gambler and I did not hide this part as i believed it was my cash so I did what I enjoyed with it ,yes very selfish I know.

But the real reason I am sharing is because I really have had enough of that life and it makes me happy and stronger with this stance and mind set I have now as finally as they say the penny dropped

Or maybe I have just admitted to myself I can not beat them and they won but they ain't getting anymore of my cash I have finally got other plans for it! Anyway rambling a bit sorry ! I have not gambled for 10 days now and I know that is nothing and the journey will be hard and long but with listening and learning from you guys I hope to finally be free and enjoying a normal or normal as can be life