So I've been gambling on and off since I was 18, now at 30 I want to do.something about it.
This was not triggered by some massive losses as seen by some people on here but more of an accumulation of losses and no withdrawal since around July despite playing solidly since then.
I stopped gambling around 4 years ago but started in January again. I was already excluded from most sites but more and more casinos pop up all the time and have found plenty to sign up to. I think gambling and depression are clearly linked as I've battles with depression since I was young too. I gamble because I'm depressed but gambling makes me more depressed. It's an endless cycle which I want to break.
I think what turned me to gambling this time was seeing YouTube videos of big wins. These type of videos made by affiliates I believe are just as dangerous and irresponsible as any advertising out there. Especially as there's very little rules surrounding them. You can get involved in someone's character, ride the big wins and losses with them but ultimately it's influenced me to gamble again. I signed up to a casino because one particular streamer was hosting a competition and I've lost way too much money since.
Today I deposited ВЈ10, got up to a huge £2500 on live blackjack and lost the lot doing crazy bets. The amount of times I reverse withdrawals is getting stupid and I think about what I could of done with that money and it makes me sick. You can never have too much money and i will continue until I have nothing left, everytime.
I have a problem, I'm sick of the lies and the person gambling makes me. My mood is totally dependant on money and I want to break that chain. I've done it before so I'm sure I can do it again. I know I will never win long term with casinos but I keep coming back. Maybe I need to speak to someone regarding depression to help me but I'm determined that this will be my last deposit.
I have no serious debt, maybe a few hundred so I'm optimistic. Coming here to talk about it is already a huge step for me. A diary of some sorts would be useful if anyone can advise on something similar to do?
Hi Gundonen, Your story resonates with me, the utube videos have definitely contributed to my slot addiction. I’m a similar age to you. I am in around 5k of debt, mostly from gambling so count yourself lucky. I admit I have borrowed money to gamble with which disgusts me. I’m determined to quit, it’s easy to fall back into the trap of gambling. My debt is repairable but the only way for me is to stop altogether. I was 200 up on Friday, reversed and ended up 400 down. I need to admit defeat and get rid of this problem as it’s holding me back in life. Let’s support each other, the only way is to admit we will never beat them. Take care
Hi Gundonen I'm glad you can get out now without any debt. I've been gambling About 30 years but it's got worst the last 4 years as my depression has got worst. I think I've always been depressed from an early age so I suppose this is why the circle of gambling and depression go hand in hand. I'm in about 10 grand of debt which I have accumulated only in the last month which has made me so low it makes me feel like jumping off a bridge. I've been in worst debt,May this year I was 23 grand in debt from loans and I won all the money back on the exchanges that's all I play. This was I think the third time I had been hugh amounts down in the last year and got it back. So why have I started again and got myself in this mess. I've come to the conclusion I want to lose I want to be miserable I've got no other reason for this. I have a nice house a wonderful wife and daughter so what more should a man need. I have worked as a manager of a betting shop for 30 years now so I know the pitfalls and I think this job is my only downfall in life I hate it with a passion but I got a big mortgage a child at private school so I have to work. Been 2 years now applying for jobs about 40 applications but not one offer of a job yet so what can I do. Anyway sorry to go on I suppose I would love some support myself do I know how you feel. I really hope your one of the lucky ones and give up for good. Tug
I can understand how both you guys got yourself in to debt. Chasing losses is what makes us problem gamblers. I am usually good with restraining from redepositing my own money but those pending withdrawals kill me. I'm greedy and we can never have too much money so back in it all goes. I hope both of you manage to kick this problem, the added weight of debt must be crippling as it seems like you will be punished for your mistakes for many years to come. The only way is up though! All the way guys
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