Not good spent too long and too much on gambling last night couldn't stop myself once I started either. I don't really know how to solve this problem or how this forum thing works properly but I need something to help, at the minute I feel like a drug addict needing to get the kick, just a bit to see me through, I tell myself. I need help I tell myself but I can't bring myself to close the sites I use down well at least after giving them my wage I shut one down at least I set have limits on the rest 20 pounds max on all 3 of the ones I have left, 6 months ago I did have 7 sites I used so I am not doing too bad 4 closed 3 to go and now I know I can spend a max of 60 pounds too and the rogue account with no limit is gone.
I think I would be happier if I wasn't stuck hating everything and everyone I know
I can't bring myself to block the last 3 they are like a crutches there if I need em, it is not good I know but I think I will post if I get the urge again, try to swap them crutches.
Hi amcada , just reading your post's and wanted to say that gambling makes you feel as though you hate everyone and everything , you look around and everyone seems to have a good life except you but those thoughts are just gambling justifying itself by telling you that it's your only friend and the only thing you can truly rely on ?.
It can all change quite easily really but you have to want that change in your life more than you want your next bet but keeping those other sites open will just allow it all to continue . I can understand your feelings of gambling being a crutch , I think it is in most cases for all of us something that helps us through a bad day or week and somewhere to run and hide for a few hours a day ? , It's mainly about that fear of letting go and closing the last loopholes , I said to someone the other day how I saw kit as when your learning to swim and are frightened to let go of the edge of the pool , then when you finally do you may struggle a bit at first but you soon realsie that you can swim and that holding that pool edge was the thing that was stopping you achieving what you want and it's no different with letting gambling go really , that and not chasing your losses by accepting gamblings beat you and that your not going to keep taking it on anymore ?.
It's not easy but it is doable but you need to let go of that edge and get your life back , I was in a really dark place when I came here gambled for over 35 yrs and scared of being without it in my life but now 14 months on without a bet I see it all for what it really is and I ain't going back :)).
You can do tghis but you have to want to enough :)) .
Best wishes Alan
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