Hi,
Been lurking for a few weeks now and decided today I should sign up.
I've truly sickened myself with gambling, I am nearly 30 and have been gambling since I was 18. I never considered it to be a problem because I always won enough to keep me going, the winnings paid for holidays and I enjoyed playing.
At the start I was going to the bingo, then it was online bingo. Once I was online I got sucked into playing slots, I would play every day online, honestly how sad. I used to enjoy the casino after a night out but then I started going myself and during the days.
I ran up about £4000 worth of gambling debt using a credit card (Bye bye credit rating) and I thought enough is enough I must sort this out. I had 3 and half grand set aside for a rainy day. You can only see where this is going. I paid 3500 to that credit card from my savings and surprise surprise I blew it online gambling.
Really I feel so disgusted with myself, I am ashamed and if anyone found out I would be so embarrassed.
This website has been really helpful for me, I am so glad I found it. The last time I gambled was on the 13th July 2016 so I am 23 days gamble free. The hardest days for me is when I am off work, I would usually be sat glued to my laptop or at the casino. I have 2 weeks off work coming up where I actually planned to go on my summer holiday but because I have peed my money down the drain there will be no holiday for me. I have considered cancelling my leave and going to work at least that way I will have something to do.
I am a bit of a loner, I am depressed and have a problem with alcohol. I have been to see my gp who refered me to councilling, however after attending my first meeting I decided I don't need it and that I was just having a rough time. I didn't mention my drinking or gambling because I guess I am in denial and thought I am not telling them that.
Also because I had been gambling so heavely I was drinking to make myself feel better (because that works!) and then I was missing work. I was scared I would get sacked for being off so I had to tell my boss about being depressed I told them it was mostly down to the on/off tempestuous relationship I was in, that had part to do with it but the main thing was the gambling the drinking the stress of being in unmanageble debt.
My mind is starting to clear, I think, I hope
I look forward to talking to you all.
Thanks for reading, sorry about the spelling.
welcome
I'im about 2 weeks without gambling but 21 yrs sober (got sober at 29). My gambling was always as bad as my drinking, back then of course it was all slots in pubs and trips to Vegas now its all poker and slots on line
Keep going my friend be strong.
Hi Stewpots, thanks for the welcome! How do you feel with being 2 weeks GF?
Down and out, hello, the same to you. I hope I can stay strong and keep going. 1 day at a time.
Hi breaking free, I hope this message finds you still gambling free.
The disgust, the shame and the embarrassment, it's there in shed loads. I hope, like me, you find reading about other people's experiences helpful. You realise you're not on your own with these feelings and that you don't deserve to beat yourself up. Accept what has happened and stay strong. You are working hard to stay gambling free, that has to be worth praising yourself for!
I hope you manage to find a way of coping with your troubles. Keep going!
I have a big problem of gambling.
In 2 months i loss many many Euros in soccer playing and now i feel emarassed. someone could help me?
32 days gamble free!!
great keep it up
Stay strong and keep busy. I find documentaries have helped me! Before I know it time has flown by and the Mrs has got home. All the best
Need to unfollow all the tipster/betting pages on social media. Seeing screenshots of winning accas are making me want to bet.
Also I am fed up of seeing gaming adverts on social media is there anyway to block them. They make me feel bad, guilty, ashamed. I'd rather not have that reminder.
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