I've took the first step.....I have a problem and I've told my family

Hi Karen.

Thanks for posting and sharing.

I am also angry as like you say, I have / had no need to gamble. My life was good! In fact it was amazing.

I had a rough childhood but I had overcome it. It came up in my counselling. I have always thought it may me a better person, a motivated person, but perhaps not . Time will tell through the sessions.

Financially I have lost a considerable amount. My addiction escalated considerably when I won a large amount of money in 2011. The what ifs and whys plague my thoughts.

I am all too aware of the destruction my actions have caused. I am one lucky lady that my partner is still here. I will never and I mean never put what we have in jeopardy ever again.

My vice was online. In an evening on my days off when I was home alone.

I have had fleeting thoughts of gambling but I currently hate what I have become because of it and I feel like if I hang on to that anger against it I can fight it, with everything I have.

I have also put stops in place. Well done for doing the same. Does your husband know? Have you spoken to anyone like your friends ?

Sarah

Nice to catch up in chat earlier. Rome wasnt built in a day but you are doing all the right things.

I can see the light at the end of my DMP. When it finishes we will save that money and have a bloomin good holiday at some stage alll paid for up front of course.

Tomorrow i will not gamble. Friday is not in my thoughts yet.

Best wishes

And you bal,

I find talking has really helped me. Reading other stories grounds me.

I can’t wait to get the dmp set up, take some of the pressure off.

I can’t say the same about family relationships but I do realise this will take time. I’m just devastated I have put these relationships where they are.

I was found out and for that I am grateful in some ways. It hurts now thinking about the fact I never said anything but I can’t change the past now.

Everyday I will try with each breath I take to be a better person.

This was really emotional to read- you've came through so much. Well done xx