Hi All
I wish I could be introducing myself on this forum under better circumstances. I have just lost 23k in the space of abourt 3 hours playing online casinos. I have been up and down since relapsing about 3 months ago (prior to that I managed 3 years gamble free). Tonight has blown a large hole in my finances and taken serious toll on my mental state. I can't chase this loss, I feel physically sick. A feeling I have unfortunatly experienced before. I will try and take positive actions in the next day or so but honestly feeling close to the rock bottom I hit some years back. the last 3 months of this relapse have been a rollercoaster and I have been unable to step off until I basically lost it all...again. I'm pretty devastated to be back here facing huge financial loss and emotional trouble yet again but really needed to share this with someone tonight.
Thanks for reading
Thunder
Hi Thunder, welcome to the forum. It's good you came on here rather than trying to chase any more - you never win and need to try and stop.
Do you have a partner or anyone you can talk to who can take control of the finances as you don't want to leave yourself with any room to gamble more?
I hope you are OK. How are you feeling now?
Hi Thunder, you have managed 3 years before, you can do it again. Get those blocks in place as soon as possible as a priority. Keep posting, you're not on your own. Take care and be kind to yourself. You can pick yourself back up, if you commit to staying gamble free.
Really good wishes.
Hi thunder. I, like you, recently lost a disgusting amount of money in a single session. I'm only 5 days GF, so have little by way of advice and cannot as yet lead by example but just to say well done on joining the forum and posting. it's a great start; put all the necessary blocks in place and endeavour to beat this ugly affliction. I wish you all the best
Hi thunder
I echo everything above. Lost and found is so bang on in saying don't look for happiness in the place you lost it....too true!
Like 99% of gamblers I have chased and chased and it took me losing a disgusting amount of money to give me the kick up the a**e I needed.
3 years is unbelievable! I hope to get there!
What did you do before? Maybe consider counselling to identify what (if anything) made you relapse.
I suppose sometimes we take a break and convince ourselves that we will be ok to have a flutter because after so long away from gambling we are cured?? I have convinced myself of that before after a few months and still lost but the heartache is worse.
Get back on the horse mate and wish you good luck with it.. keep posting and yes forgive yourself but don't forget.
I remember someone saying to me on my first week here " forgive yourself for your mistake but tow the debt and loss as a reminder"
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